Dear Lord,
U know all my problems before hand, before I am able to speak and before anyone else, U see the whole picture as U are the Lord of the world creature and everything is in your plan.
There are a saying regarding BF/GF's relationship such as this:-
1.) There is always someone you fell for madly but you dare not even look at him/her into their eyes, your heart pumping fast, you guys feel shy whenever get closer but deep down inside the love for each other is so pure and kind and that is called "Puppy Love"! It's once in a lifetime and he/she was the first person you have met during your life of bf/gf relationship and it stays in heart forever and ever and they are always the perfect someone who we dream to marry of.
(to be frank, if time could turn back, that is my wish to marry you and I would really wanted to shout out loud :"all I want is U!")
2.) after the first relationship and you will definitely bump into someone who truly love and care for you madly and they are the person who is really love you with all their hearts and sincerely you don't have to come out a single sacrification but they love you still for who you are. Hence, at this second stage of relationship, we were being take thing for granted and we don't sacrifice for love. Worse still, we have left the one who love us unconditionally. This is so silly!
(which I used to blame myself, non-stop silly girl, you have let go a guy who will dies for u!)
3.) at this third time of bf/gf relationship, we have came to a stage that we will fall for someone madly, as if they were our spouse in our previous life. However due to our past experience, we used to take thing for granted until we have lost our loved one dearly, we get to realized it was too late to go back for the one who truly in love with. Once again, a failed relationship that never bring us to the marriage but bring only thousand and millions of broken hearts, tears, health break down and you torn your soul apart and that person know nuts about it!
(a truly disaster stage of life that I thank god many times for never give me up!)
4.) the no.4 guy/girl used to be the one who don't really love you and so does you too. Both person doesn't have a strong feeling toward each other, less burden, less commitment, less caring, less responsibility and more of a don't care attitude. Somehow, this kind of relationship sarcastically workout and bring you guys to the hall of marriage.
( I'm in dilemma still, should I risk the rest of my life towards a cold-blooded? A lot of things that I don't share and he also don't bothered to ask and what is the point we ended up decide to tight up the knot?) - oh gosh, don't tell me the no.5 is waiting and I'm wasting my time now, at here?!)
Dear Lord, I'm a person full of love and care which in turn I do really wish and expect a lot of love and care from my other half. But it seems at this stage of relationship, I'm in the trapped of the 4th relationship. I don't give a person my complete heart (after the 3rd disaster), if I don't see he put his whole heartedly effort on me. Dear Lord, please have mercy on me, if money can buy love, Yes, he loves me; if money can't do justice, I totally can't feel his love for me!
Lord, U are the creature of all and you have the plan on your hand. Please, I pray for your guidance on my path toward the wedding bell, should I walk down the aisle with this guy or should I not? Should you Lord, please open up my eyes wide, open up my mind wise and open up my heart sincerely to go along the way that you have planned for me. I really don't want to walk down the aisle with regrets!
Lord, please, if I have walking toward the direction that is not given by you, please re-direct me to the correct path. I don't wanna live the rest of my life with tears and sufferings and I will never wish to be with the one who never cares for me but fans me with money..
Dear Lord, time is less, I'm eargerly wanting for your answer. I know you love me dearly that you will never wanted to see me live in tears!
Lord, I pray for your merciness on me, Amen.
