What I wanna ..

I wanna hold your hand so much ,

So that I will never get lost again in the crowds..

So that I will never feel scare when I am crossing roads..

I wanna you to hold my hand so much,

So that u can walk with me and I can follow up your pace and I feel safe with u holding my hand..

So that I can hold u back so tight that I will never willing to let go..

I wanna hug you so much,

So that u will feel secure and I’ll let u know that I will always be there for you..

So that u will know that I am always yours..

I wanna you to hug me so much,

So that I can listen to your heart beat and realize u were so real to me..

So that once again I can feel your warmth and never freeze again and I knew that I am being pampered..

I wanna kiss you so much,

Because your kisses are forever so sweet!

Because you are the only person that I am willing to sacrifice my kisses to..

I wanna you to kiss me so much,

To let me realized that I am in loved!

To let me know that u sayang me a lot!

I wanna love you so much,

Because you are the only one I wanted so much..

Because out of the billions peoples in the world, I want only you!

Indeed you’re the very special someone for me!

I wanna you to whisper ‘I love you’ to me so much,

To let me know that I m being loved!

To let me know that I am a very important person to u!

To let me know that u are being serious and u cared a lot!

And for now, I am going to miss u so much! Miss u so until the day I see u again! *hugs*

Kites day~

Due to the coming exams' pressure, we can't help ourselve much but to study, study and study! Ofcourse we are not so stupid to study everyday like an idiot though! For most of the time, I admit instead of doing something more interesting, we grab our precious time and throw it all on those boring books! That's why PRESSURE! Anyway, we are still human and finally the genuis us came up with an idea - play kite! Yea, that's the cool one indeed!

On a not so windy day (not we picked, but the weather nowadays are difficult to predict!), we went to the Metropolitan Park to 'show off' our kites and skills.. lol, although we are not expert but we are not lousy either! Hey, don't laugh k! Atleast our kites flied up high on the sky! U know on moments like these, I really feeling relief when I managed to make my kite flying so high up there!(I don't care how I fly it up, as long as it flies) Feel the satisfaction and feel good! Moreover, the cool air there(the rain just stop) just nice to sooth my poor heart! I know myself I can't hold all dis shits any longer but I just don't wish to blast out! Be *patient*!

However, sadly to say so our batman kite been flying away from us! =.=" *heartache++* the ever 1st kite that we managed to fly up high but then blame the string for not enough long for the distance! In the moment of a spark, the batman just flew away! Grrrrrr.. who to blame? It's too short for us to trace back whose fault! But then is this so important that someone needed to be blame for? If the thing that has already happened, no point pointing finger isn't it? *however I feel sorry for it* What we shall do is to find solution and solve/cure it! Yea, none of us get mad though deep inside us, we miss our ever 1st 'batman'! Instead of that we bought another mermaid kite! Cool, this is a very beautiful kite for gals! The mermaid kite got a long rainbow tail,I seriously love it and thanks alot to him! *thumb up* We managed to control our emo well and we've done the right thing!

It was a sweet day out and we've enjoyed ourselve there pretty much and I truly feel glad for this and appreciate the sweet moment like dis alot! It's been 10 years ago since I last played kites.. Thus I miss playing kite so much and that day I felt like I was goin back to my childhood time! Hey, I honestly feel proud of myself for being such a tough kampung girl that can be so 'outgoing' .. lol.. don't believe it? come and challenge me *winks*

Special one in Marche restaurant ~

Ha.. yesterday indeed a special day for me! (Yup, I guess it should be special, I know why!) Anyway, I’ll keep the secret myself and u don’t need to know more *grins*

Yesterday, I went to school early in the morning as usual.. weather looks normal, a normal sunny day, nothing much change at home, nothing much change at outside as well, nor I feel excited or what, but I just feel NORMAL and dump ass force to wake up as usual! Actually dump ass feel so lazy to wake up but then come to think about it, it was the last day of my class! How can I miss it then? No way, I love my classes actually!

Hence, I decided to make myself a pink lady, dressed up myself nicely with my lovely pinky dress and fit my feet into a pair of lovely pink high heels! Yea, that’s me! I love pink! I freaking love pink since young! I don’t deny that if u wear sharp pink, u might attract a lot of attention because peoples not usually dare to wear sharp pink! Lol.. sadly my dress happened to be the pink in sharp! But hey that’s not my intention and I just love pink, that’s it! So don’t judge me that way =)

As usual, class was boring and the weather was so hot! So after class, I decided to reward myself with a cool ABC ice-kacang! Thus, my housemate and I then headed towards the nearer mamak restaurant to get that freaking cool and sweet ice! Hey, look, the ice-kacang was also in pink! Pink color ice with sirap and milk topping with the strawberry flavor ice-cream! Cool~ so cold in my lil mouth and I feel cool too! What a pink day for me! *lovely*

Who know surprise always come at last minute! Instead this is a good one! I’m glad! Guess what? I got treated to a very nice restaurant for dinner! *excited* wow, finally, I am here at Marche restaurant for a wonderful buffet dinner! Yea, I love buffet because I am a very ‘tham chia’ gal! I admit I can’t eat much normally but when it comes to buffet, I don’t know why I suddenly got so ‘semangated’ to eat all I can! Lol.. I just love to eat a little but full with variety of choices will do please! So buffet will be just nice! I love trying out something new!

This restaurant indeed a special one from others! It’s a Switzerland based restaurant. This is a big restaurant that got a lot of food stalls in it. There’s like a morning market theme usually only the overseas will do, except here is the indoor ‘morning market’! There got full loads of food to choose from but still I have to say their variation of food is not much because they served only western food. But hey they served good food! Gain back my appetite though! (So don’t calculate so much la..hehe!)Other than the all sort of food stalls, there are different style of restaurant hut for customers to choose to dine in! The interior design of Marche indeed a very special one. No words to describe unless u experienced it yourself! They played soothing music plus the well-soft lighting make the place perfect! Moreover, the staffs there were so friendly! They smile and greet u whenever u went around in the restaurant! I seriously feel good and comfortable to be there!














Yeap, I love there a lot! I admit we did enjoy ourselves there very much! *thumb up* I am happy and very satisfied! Indeed, we were having a very great dinner and wonderful evening! Hey, thanks a lot and I appreciate this very much! ;) *yiepie* - happy day!
After home, the satisfaction smile still freezing on my face! what to do I am so very happy! *sweet*

爱。要真心～

一年四季里，我最不喜欢的是雨季！而偏偏在这个时候是雨季。。我并不开心。。

雨，下得好大好大。。都把我身上的污迹给冲洗掉了！剩下的我只看到我心口上的疤痕。。原以为我已把旧伤口治好，可惜的是,我只是把伤口上的痛,暂时性的忘掉而已。。

我不懂得怎样去爱我自己。。已经破裂的心。。我没有好好的去照顾。。所以它渐渐的破碎到满地都是。。这时候的我已经不知道该如何去补救我这破烂的心。。。

尚在流着血的心，连呼吸都困难。。

好想放弃，但人怎么会舍得去丢弃一个自己这么喜爱的东西？

我真的不想看到我的真心被狗咬！但在这个现实的世界里有谁的真心没被狗咬过？？

而我要求的只是我爱的人能够对我真心。。也真正的去珍惜我这一颗真诚的心而已。。就仅此这样可以吗？

爱我的人。。如果你是真的爱我。。那，对我真心好吗？

All my innocent ones ~.*

1st come my lovely lil pinky Ms.Hipopo~ small little fat ass but alwiz a good companion when I m studying on my desk! She helped me to boost up energy and keep me awake!

My benignly Mr. Nemo who alwiz guards over and watching me on my studies.. see whether I m actually paying full concentration on ma books or not? LoL.. it helps! (will feel guilty if I don't)

My notty playmate - Mr. Monkey! As u know monkey is alwiz hyper-active. So whenever i'm bored, atleast there is 'something' to cheer me up! (and guess u know where is he came from?) He used to sleep on my bed when he was young *grins*

My ever cutely Ms. Tortoise! This little cute one instead a surprise for me! It was really shocked me out when I saw her in da car for da 1st time! I long for this little tortoise for all this whilst and that someone just presented 'her' on time to cheer me up when I was at my very down moment. Indeed, it works! I smile happily and melted inside when I saw this sitting infront of me.. u know cute things are alwiz so irresistible! ( U make me smile once again!) *winks*

Here come my lonely Mr.Zebra! He alwiz missing someone at one corner quietly.. poor thing! Hence, he deserved a lot of sayang from me and he loves to manja with me all the times! How loveable is he, u can imagine ;)

Here come my depressive Ms.Eeyore! Though she is the depressed one but then one good thing of her is she could be your best listener without any interruption and she will cry together with u! *sweet* She is totally a sympathizer!

But don't worry, be happy! Here come the sanguinely Mr. Shakey! He is the one who used to calm me down and say :"It's alrite..relax gal.. it's not a big deal.. everything will be fine soon!" There is always a sunny day after a rainy day! *cool*~

This is my memorable pink little Ms. Bear! Whenever I see her, I'll smile! A lot of sweet memories attached on her.. In short, she is the sweetest bear that I ever have and it will be forever stay in my heart! *sweet lil pink one I owned and cannot afford to lose her*

Here come the brownie Mr. Bean Bear! He was my ever 1st companion when I just came all the way from my hometown. Still remembered I was so lonely when I 1st reached here..the lonely me and this brownie sat near the window side by side and looked for the crowds outside..(that's the hard times) He watched me cried, watched me laughed, and spending all his time with me. Whenever I am lonely, he is there.

This is the castle builed by someone a so called 'creative' one! This the calendar month of April. Everyday,it's just right there for me. It keeps reminding me about the days that left for the exams are lesser day after day.. But then it reminds me to waste no more time and started to work from now! *yes NOW!*

Look, whose by my side keep me alive? Yea, all my treasures above! When the rain is pouring down and my heart is hurting, they will always be around, this I know for certain! Great! I'm blessed~

And below is my coming .. (or expected ones)


LoL.. They are the angelic CJ7 and the little charming lochness monster!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I would be glad if I own these two monsters *giggles* wishing.. wishing..

BEAN from the dustbin ~

It’s space to complain and time to release again! I always found this very useful whenever I blast everything out here, the least I could do is to feel release! (cuz I don’t want to bored up my listener!) Frankly, I need at least one listener now at this very moment and thanks God for sending them on time! Thanks my lil poor one ;) but friends are mean to be like that. Sometimes u listen to me and sometimes I listen to u, we always back each other up, that’s called friend isn’t it?

Whatever I learn, not to be someone that peoples hate for! Unfortunately, there is someone like that who walked into my life! Nothing nice come out from his farking big mouth and everything from others seem to be bad for him! Hence, he likes to talk bad about peoples and stuffs, and he farkingly loves to talk big talk craps! Yuck, 1^st time in my life that I’ve met such a genuinely guy (he called himself a MAN) that love to talk cock! He so loves to cock and boo everywhere until peoples around hate him so much but he never realize! Kick your own ass larr bagger!

In short, he is just nobody for me! I never like to be friend with this kind of people and please beanpole, don’t ever step into my life again and interrupt me! YOU ARE NEVER WELCOME TO MY WORLD! Who’s the hell you think u are to step in and criticize every of my things? Why are u so like to bitchy about my life and I just don’t seem to understand why?! It is just none of your business and please leave me alone and f***ed off! *go away go away*

U skinny beanpole, please look at yourself 1^st before u started to open your big bad mouth and spread virus around!

Nb: This is particularly for the so called ‘beanpole’ only! For those who are reading this, I’m sorry but don’t feel offended. Thank you.

Home made p0p c0rn ~

Yea, this is my very 1st time- fresh experience of making pop-corn! On that day, I think it was a week ago, I suddenly got this 'mega plan' on head while pondering around da house.. thinking of to make some surprise for someone who is hunger for pop-corn to eat at night! Hence da home made fresh pop-corn were BORN out of da freaking idea of mine! Though it looks bit plain in da pic but hey it taste really good! Hey, that's my 1st time, give face k kawan? *grins* u guys don't believe? LoL, I can't believe it too when I saw my house mate gave me a thumb-up after he has tasted for da 1st bite! Cool~ da initial plan was to send this hot-fresh sweet pop-corn to da one who are long for the pop-corn! But then.. sigh.. after everything have done, it's started to rain! *frustrated*1stly, I got no transport to go. 2ndly, a so called pretty chic like me *bleh* is not safe to take cab alone! 3rdly, it was raining and it's not a good idea to do so! 4thly, we do not have any spare air-tight ware to keep da sweet pop-corn fresh and finally, da 3 'hungry ghost' at home filled up their empty stomach(u noe raining day!) by finish up all da delicious sweet pop-corn! *terrible* betui!

The least, i should thank my house mate for his helping hands! (not for da burning hand he caused, dun misunderstand) If without his helping hands, I guess da slow-motion gal like me sure end up burn up da pop-corn during da process of coating up da pop-corn with honey (our honey made by sugar+butter) LoL.. sound abit not right but taste nice! That's more than enuf isn't it? *cheeky*



Though I didn't burn up da pop-corn but hey I got my hand burn!! Both of my dear house mates teasing me on my 'heart-shape' scar somemore! >.<"







I guess this is da reward from God since I've made this sweet honey pop-corn out of da lovely thoughts.. but then, still da1 who suppose to taste it, da1 who hunger for it for days never had da chance to have a bite on it! Anyway, never mind, I'm very sure that my 2nd time of making of da pop-corn will be better and ofcourse it definately taste nicer than this! LoL.. be patient and waiting for it ;)

Stressed up !!

So stressed up recently because of the coming stupid final exams! Hate being as an external student! We need to work extra but achieve not more than others could achieve! Sometimes, we are being asked some silly questions like why are u so panic since there’s still so long for exams? Why are u taking so long to finish your course? Why are u always looked so tired? What is it so tough about? Stupid! Really stupid! I’m seriously sick of all these! I just wished that if u were on my shoes and started to think of why am I so furkingly exhausted!

Oh well, I don’t blame anyone for this as I am the one who choose to pick this tough course but please don’t bother me by asking me stupid questions! Thanks and it would help a lot! Sigh, I don’t mean to offence anyone but I m stressed up that’s it!

Hate to suffer like hell and get nothing in the end! I messed things up and I was too slow to catch the pace. Thus making myself extremely panic and lose confidence. Anyway, still need to work on it! How long could I still carry on? I don’t know, I have no other options. I just feeling so stressed up.. sigh!

I’m stressed + neck pain :’( and I miss home too >.<”

FooLs DaY ~

I am not a fool by showing how much I care for u..

I am not a fool by telling how much I love u..

I am not a fool by missing u each day..

And I never want to be a fool one if I tell u that I really love u!

Happy April Fools~

Yet, I m not fooling around and if I say that I LOVE U, I meant it!