～矛盾之境～

年终到了，心情却很低弱。。虽然很期待圣诞的来临，但总是在这温暖的季节心事重重。。很想一个人走在这寒冬里，但又不甘寂寞。。很矛盾的处境，我的心不停的在争扎着。。很是辛苦！

热泪迎面，觉得生活这条路好难走。。 好难。。好难。。我总是爱胡思乱想，是个很悲观思想的女孩，但总是成为朋友中的开心果！我不明白为何独处的时刻我就悲伤起来了～！！ 或许这样的我常牵累了身边最亲密的人。。很抱歉，我也不想这样。。内心世界的我总是那么的脆弱，轻易掉泪，让人觉得我很失败！

处在低落的时刻，我不知该如何做决定。。或许是我的语言，或许是您的态度，让我开始懂得慢慢退后了！也许我错了，我是个爱梦游的女人，谁又捉得着我的灵魂？？

失去了自我，我在黑暗中摸索，没有方向，我迷路了。。我真的迷路了！！在寒冷的雪中央，我真的需要您的拥抱，鼓励。。让我重新振作！但请允许我掉泪类的恶习陪我这一辈子。。含泪的眼睛才是我的领导天使，感情丰富的才是真正的我！我会是个全新的我！


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IzziT dA w0rld uPsiDe d0wN wHeneVer i feeL uPsEt??

I feel that the world is so cool whenever I feel upset.. cold war happened because of cold blood people treat each other badly! It’s a sad case that I never ever wish it to be happened but it is happening! I feel so “faint” whenever I get bad treat from him, izzit the world get upside down?? I always asking myself whether I have make a right choice but there is always don’t have a firm answer for me! I don’t bother how’s other say about us, I just care about how I feel.. it’s more practical to exercise my relationship through the real path.. that’s called “feel” .. but izzit “feel” always lead us to the direct part? I really feel confusing just because of my messy feeling!! How wonderful if I am allowed to go to heaven for a fresh breath, have a new brain, new life whenever I wish to go.. I hate to make decision because I scare I have make a wrong decision.. but am I ?

I am so moody now.. I have no body.. I have no love, no care, nobody nobody ever..!!
My heart get cracked dee.. it’s hurt wor.. whY getting hurt from love? Am I stupid enuf? Maybe I am stupid enuf until I get fooled in love.. disappointed!

I am selfish, I will never bother how u feel, u might think like that but it is fine maybe I am! U can leave me if u can’t stand me.. I bet u won’t be the only one who is so called “cold blood” here because the world is cool! I am a bad girl, just leave me alone and u might feel relief!!

t0ugh _ hArd worK

Since when i start to work?? Ya..since sept xx day i started to work as a part time promoter.. i felt so tired for the first few days but after that i already used to it..my legs no more pains..my eyes no more tears.. and my prays increasing day by day.. =>

It's nice to have a good working partner there though she is an aunt but she always got lots topic to chit chat v me..ha! The gap of our age didn't bring us to the "narrow way"! She is so friendly until she can become a good story teller for me..haha! At 1st, through her outlook, i thought she is a very cool & serious person and maybe a lil bit boring too but good things always come late(my dear said1), it's true! ha, my 1st impression to her is extremely wrong! It's my pleasure to meet her,seriously i love to talk v her as well! She is a very understanding person that won't scold you without reasons..10s god,i met a good and responsible working partner like her! :) But got one thing i dun like to work as a promoter is some customer are rude, hostilely, they will never appreciate a promoter like us, it's a sad case! They "bad mouth" us and acting arrogantly (because they are rich enough to buy branded maybe..hehe!) this kinda person i will never gotta show my respect to them! Plz don expect others to respect you if you don't respect urself and others! Of course not every customer will act unfriendly, some of them are understanding and appreciate our hard work and because of this we will serve them for the best1 !

The only thing i m worrying for is whether i can cope v my studies or not? I really hope that i can catch both at a time.. though it's abit hard for me i know but i have no choice >.<" Im not greedy but it's true i hv no others way to go.. please! God will always listen to us and yet i always pray hard to God cause i m a troublesome gal..i need to tell out my everything especially to God then only i feel relief .. i believe in HIM and i rely on my praying cause i know that HE is always there for me and for every1 of us!

I feel so disappointed .. .. ..

My life is so tough and I have nothing to say about it .. I just feel very upset .. shUuu.. :'(
n0 1 can feel my wound and nobody is gonna cure it.. I feel so tough, so disappointed and worry!
I can't even see there's a lil bright in my front path.. I feel so tiring of those stuff and my tears are so reluctant to come out from my big round blacky eyes .. may be I'm already used to it and I get bored of it! I feel nothing at that moment and then I felt hurt seriously and the wound will never recover.. :"( a bit confusing but that's my mood.. that's what I'm thinking now.. that's what I feel now..

Friend, please don't ask me anything, don't ask me what had happened, just keep quiet ..
I just want to close my eyes and rest my mind.. I need peacefulness!

I miss u gals ~.~"

Hai Hi~!! Seem a very long time I never step into here already.. hehe..finally I’m free to visit here again!! I feel good and I’m already quit my job and getting to start my “inter” class very soon (tomorrow)!! A bit excited, a bit worry, feel a bit uneasy >.<” The reason why I never update my blog for so long is just because I’m basically busy with my working stuff.. a so called “oL” keke ~.* actually is not busy but felt tired PLUS PLUS after working(not enough sleep maybe).

Anyway it’s an easy job..kaka..really thanks God! It’s boring I can say!! But I did gain some benefit there.. I won a precious friendship during my working place..yeah! They (2 malay gal and 1 indian gal) are so friendly for me! Though we are in “race relations” and in different ages but we can join together without argue but only making fun..fun..fun!!!!!! We did crap a lot.. have lunch together, celebrate Bday together, shopping together, lot of joke, laugh non-stop and SINGING in the office while our supervisor not with us.. lol >,<” sHuuuuuu(sweet secret)!! Yet I did learn and know something about pricing system. It requires Barcode, description, model/article code and those range of product.. So gain??

Seriously I really feel so happy to know them. I do appreciate our friendship and hope that our friendship will last long!! Argh, I will miss u guys always!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sob sob :’(
We need to separate no matter how solid is our relationship. Anyway separate doesn’t mean that’s the end of our friendship, right? Gals.. I’m waiting for our next gathering!!
All the best for u gals, take care and I miss u gals!!!!!!!! It’s pleasurable to know u gals!

It’s hard to meet a true friend like u all and I’ve met it during my this time working experience .. it’s worth! (though the basic pay is so low and I have not a good post)

~福气~

每个女人都有权力去争取自己的幸福,能够与一个好男人相爱,那是你的福气~!!

爱情~请让我休息吧! 曾经辜负我的人,我的确感失望~!!!!!!!!

昨天不愉快的事又重演了..
或许爱情是件累人的儿戏..
男人总是不知道自己做错了什么; 而女人总会为了男人的一举一动而感悲伤!!

已经好多次了.. 他的冷漠, 他在我面前所成现的无奈, 都让我的心隐隐做痛..而他呢..?却一无所知!! 又或许那个时候他知道他根本不该使出那样伤人的对待, 但奈何他却做了?! 他冷漠的对待, 旁人异样的眼光, 让我感觉好无助, 好难过! 他不曾了解! 为了某些 “重要”事件, 他可以抛下我不管! 顿时间我慌了, 我对他失去了信心, 我的安全感散了! 我觉得好失望..好心疼..我做错了选择!! 因为别人的重要事, 我顿时间成为角落旁的小角色!

我一直都相信真心爱我的人会对我很好..我以为他就是那一个人, 可是我错了! 冷漠事件让我大掉眼镜!! 每个人都会有他们的两面, 但我万万没想到的是..他也会如此对待我! 当脾气降临时, 爱已经不存在.. 我美好的希望从此被毁灭! 原来没有一个人会永远的对你好, 更没有人会时时刻刻的好好对待身边所拥有的一切.. .. .. ..

错误不停的上演, 道歉不停的重复.. 我的忍耐度会到达哪儿?? 我的心能够承受多久的伤害?? 不想再讲, 只因那已是 “旧病复发”, 再多次的告状也无效! 或许人的本性难移, 我也不想免强了.. 或许是性格不合吧! 我一直都认为性格不合只不过是个借口, 但事实证明了不是! 或许他根本不能接受吵吵闹闹的我, 这使他感觉厌烦, 而对我做出冷漠之举.. 我并不是他的合拍伴侣..

或许没有等到最后一分钟, 那个好好先生是不会出现? 那到底要等多久才算是最后一分钟?? 是临死前的那一分钟吗?? 又或许美好的爱情根本不会发生在我的身上.. 那位久等的好好先生也不会看上我..


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~c0nFu$3d~

If you want to know what God wants you to do, ask him, and he will gladly tell you, for he is always ready to give a bountiful supply of wisdom to all who sk him.
( James 1:5 TLB )

But when you ask him, be sure that you really expect him to tell you, for a doubtful mind will be unsettled as a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind; and every decision you then make will be uncertain, as you turn 1st this way and then that, If you don't ask with faith, don't expect the Lord to give you any solid answer.
( James 1:6-8 TLB )

无法控制的痛再次亲临!!

凌晨三点多.. 我又失眠了..
就当全世界都入睡的时候, 就只剩下孤单的小草!!
我知道此时此刻我应该睡了.. 但很多时候 “应该” 却不是主旨!
往往应该做的事, 我们没有办到..
不应该发生的事却发生了.. 可悲由此而起..

今早凌晨,我的心再次的痛得很!!
每当很伤心的时候, 心痛总是尤然而生.. 这是正常人所承受的吗??
或许我是个不正常的一颗小草吧..

伤心伤心伤心.. 是真的伤害到我脆弱的那颗心了吗?
我不懂, 我都不懂.. 只知道, 在最伤心的时刻.. 心痛总会到访!!
不敢证实是否是事实, 更不愿去面对残酷的事实.. 或许这是心脏病的预告..
不管了.. 如果无法接受, 我宁可不知道.. 至少这样会好过些..
总是害怕心停的那一刻, 但却不知道活着的义意是什么?!

泪擦干了, 我还是得往前走.. 不管跌过多少次, 我依然要往前行.. 或许心停的那一刻就在前方!!
走啊走的.. 原来我们只不过为了要争取安宁!
心也总该有休息的时候.. 闭上双眼.. 从此不再受苦!!


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s0 hAppY to liV3 wiTh mY s0uL

Oh angels!!
Finally I’m here to say HI !! I’m back !!
Haha.. I found myself.. yiepie!!

No more burden, no more worry, no more tears!!
Don’t need to suffer, no more torture stuff, don’t need to study in mid night and don’t need to wake up in the very earlier morning to memorize the foolish points for the stupid exam!!

Such life really like shit!!
Live in the hell, very lonely and helpless.. no love, no joy, no light..
Cold, dark and fears.. sTruggle very hard to get a peaceful life!!

Thanks for everything .. I’ve get rid of it.. it’s just like a terrible + horrible lesson for me!! Yuck.. yuck.. yuck.. yuck!!
And now..I feel myself so light and really can fly without wings .. LoL ~.*

AnSw3r 0uR pRaY3rs *.~

I will answer them before they even call to me. While they are still talking to me about their needs, I'll go ahead and answer their prayers.
(Isaiah 65:24 TLB)

I tell you, whatever you ask in your prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours.
(Mark 11:24 NIV)

Now glory to be God who by his mighty power at work within us is able to do far more than we would ever dare to ask or even dream of - infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts or hopes.
(Ephesians 3:20 TLB)

Until now you have not asked for everything in my name. Ask and you will receive and your joy will be complete.
(John 16:24 NIV)

You will call, and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help and he will say: here am I.
(Isaiah 58:9 NIV)

If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish and it will be given you.
(John 15:7 NIV)

Call unto me, and I will answer thee and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.
(Jeremiah 33:3 KJV)

God's pRomis3s

Praise be to God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comfort us in all our trouble, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

(2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NIV)

My Mr. Right --> 宝贝儿童

这里就象是我的避风港.. 每当心事重重时, 伤心失望时, 得意忘形时, 心情闷闷时, 害怕紧张时, 很累很灰时 .. 我总是想到这儿来,歇息.. 泄气.. 拚命的吐出我心酸的点滴!

当我知道你将再次离开我时, 当我知道我们又将被伤心太平洋隔离时, 我又再次听到心碎 à 坪~!! 哗啦哗啦, 落地又开花!! 很想流泪.. 很想抱着你哭个不停

开心的日子很快要结束了.. 这也意味着伤心难过的日子即将来临!! 宝贝..我很舍不得你!!!!!!!!!! 千千万万个不舍得.. 不舍得.. “达令”!!

接下来的两个星期, 我将会为我的大考拚得死去活来!! 在宝贝儿童不在的日子, 宝贝娃娃也会拚出一个春天来!! 宝贝儿童, 虽然没有你的陪伴, 但有你的支持已经足够..它将会是我最有效的推动力!! 宝贝儿童, 谢谢你的爱!! 有你的爱, 我就会感觉幸福, 嘻!!


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~ 永远闪烁着的守护星 ~

下午驾车回家的途中, 我听到了这首歌 .. 顿时间感触很多 ..
也许它很灰, 也许它很悲, 也许它就是这样的触动了我的旧伤口 ..

歌的内容大慨是酱子的 . .

“你常对我说, 如果有缘, 就算绕一个圈子, 我们也会回到对方的身边 . .
我却常担心, 就算那时候感情还在, 但我们却是在遇上别人之后才相遇 . .”

这是一种遗憾, 恨从逢太晚!!
对彼此的伤害, 心灵上的创伤, 更是折磨人心的痛!!

曾经何时就知道, 我不是唯一的受害者.. 他们的感伤, 我都明了!!
当我听到这首歌时, 所以才一笔感触涌上心头..
含着泪, 却不容许自己再流下那么的一滴泪..

我所经历过的痛, 他们也承受过 ..
我所流过的泪, 他们何曾没有??

所以说.. 当你心伤时, 总会有人陪你度过!
同样的.. 当你开心时, 也总会有人与你分享!
因为在这个世界上, 没有人是特别 “特别” 的, 上帝总是那么公平, 他不会让你一个人承受所有的苦!!

当你受伤时, 我会尽力把你治好 ..
当你康复后, 请向你的目标飞去 ..
我会微笑的看着我的 “成绩”, 一个接一个的向光明的地方飞去, 去寻找各个的幸福!
而我.. 我却会是哪颗挂在天边, 永远闪烁着的守护星!!

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VerY TireD aRgH !! BuT nO cHoiceS I Hv no oPtiOn B!!

人好累..还好上天保佑.. 我还能健健康康的做在这儿 “留言” ..

嘟 .. .. .. .. .. 断了! 放心, 我还有呼吸!! 眼睛痒痒, 我知道我开始要见周公了..但我绝对不成全自己去..就算眼睛痛得很也罢!! 此时外貌已经不重要了..成绩才要紧!!

死不罢休, 我要发奋图强!! 乘下的日子不多了..我得好好珍惜, 利用这些好时光..
朋友们, 我就此丢笔, 后会有期!!

~ 人生 ~

好累..好累..
临床要入睡的时候, 却失眠了 ..
从梦中苏醒的时候, 却好爱睏 ..

早上起床 .. 晚上睡觉 .. 刷牙洗脸 .. 吃饭消化 .. 生老病死 ..
读书读书 .. 考式考式 .. 分数分数 .. 文凭文凭 .. 前途钱途 ..
异性相吸 .. 堕入爱河 .. 吵架分手 .. 离离合合 .. 百年好合 ..

工作工作 .. 赚钱赚钱 .. 养家养家 .. 幸幸苦苦 .. 为了什么??
望子成龙 .. 望女成凤 .. 盼望子女 .. 创好业绩 .. 出人头地 ..
期望越高 .. 失望越大 .. 心灵创伤 .. 儿女压力 .. 这又何苦??

今天地震 .. 明天海啸 .. 生命短暂 .. 何必计较 ..
相互珍惜 .. 才最重要 .. 心满意足 .. 已经足够 ..
生活 .. 即从复又从复 .. 看似无味 .. 但, 每个人只有品尝它的一次机会!!
咱们只不过是走着老前辈所经过的路 .. 生老病死, 只经历一次 ..

愿神保佑 .. 一家大小 .. 永远安康 .. 幸福快乐 .. 和和气气 .. 合家平安, 快乐!!

人生仅不过如此, 让咱们细细品尝生活趣味, 活出一个春天 .. 明天会更好!!


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~ LoVe ConFuSioN ~ !!

Why love?? Since love brings so much sadness than happiness for life.. why all of us still want to love?? Cause of ..we are human?? cause we have feeling?? cause we have emotion?? Why we always cry for our love one?? Why we always worry for our love one? Is it we care?? Is it we love?? So that we have so much things to worry for??

We live for others or we live for ourselves?? There are tons of question about LOVE ..confuse!! What should we do before we make a decision? Follow our heart or follow our mind?? There always happened to be in a tough situation cause our heart not always match with our mind.. :'(

Heart?? mind?? heart?? mind?? Heart or mind?? confuse until we got to hurt some one else.. Especially for our love one.. we don't wish to hurt them, we are not intended to hurt them and of cause we are unwilling to hurt them..but why end up with they get hurt because of us??

I thought i could be a good girl friend but i seem like not success to be.. may be im too sensitive.. may be im too talkative.. may be i m too bad for him.. i still got a lots to learn..i need to do self improvement. So that i can be the perfect gal for that some one in some day *.~

Don't copy my aRtiCleS pLeAsE~!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey!! Recently i just realize that my good article which is my own diary here get "robbed" by some one!! That bastard attached my meaningful chinese blogs into his email and then send to others!! SuX !!

How come this kind of shit stuff happened to me?? Though i know that those of my chinese articles are best enough for you guys to keep it but please.. DON"T copy my articles!! Else you can just click on my blog link and then save it into 'favorites' !! COPY CAT, let me remind you that if you want to share my good articles with your friends.. just recommend them about my blog.. there is no point for you to copy my articles and send thru email to your friends.. guys you are so stupid!! Guys..you are so selfish until you gotto harm my good articles, my words from my truly heart!!!!!!!

Your fucking ass hole!! You stole my "heart words" away!! Beware, God will punish you in some day!!You or your company might be sued or bankrupt in some day!! You are your mama cheeky son.. and you are your papa useless daughter!! You are society bUm as well!! You are so poor until you wanna rely on my good articles to survive!! Shit!! You fucking damn devil.. You better go to HELL!!

耳好痛, 人好累, 眼好悃, 心好疼!!

啊 .. 好累!! 才做几小时散工的我真的很不争气 . . 最近变得好弱, 所以才会 “ 酱” 累人!! 家人都是每天工作的, 而我却在他们休息的周日上班..!! 好累, 好悃 .. 神啊!! 救救我吧!! 求您赐我力量, 我需要十足的精神来读书啊!! :”()

刚才有个傻瓜, 坐在镜子面前掉眼泪!! 哈 .. 原来皮外伤的痛, 也可以使人掉热泪!! 一直都有 “男子汉, 大丈夫” 性格的我 .. “自己跌倒, 自己爬” , “流血, 不流泪” !! 今天虽然没有跌倒, 但我却哭了.. 耳朵欺负人!! 原本柔嫩的耳朵, 如今都已变成红肿的硬块!! 好心酸 .. .. 我心爱的耳环们, 再见了!!

我太爱护自己了 .. 不容许自己受伤害! 在这我指的是皮外伤!! 因为我知道心灵上的痛..是无法避免的!! 谁都有可能会中伤我们, 但可悲的是 .. 往往我们却被最深爱的人伤得至深.. 甚至伤得死去活来, 难到这就叫做又爱又恨?! 为什么会酱子?? 只因为我们 “在乎”!! 不是吗??

也许人类就是酱子的.. 在拥有时, 不懂得珍惜!! 失去时才感遗憾 .. 这又何苦呢? 神啊! 但愿您保佑我的爱情!! 我不希望自己选择的那个人会为自己带来了伤痛, 而成为生命中的畔脚石!!

瘦瘦的小手.. 在我心灵最脆弱时, 显得更为..皮包骨了! 也许在我最无助的时候, 小手就会无意间的断了~!!

闷闷的心情 ~_~

噢噢.. 我迟了一步.. 迟了一步去冲凉 .. 结果饭桌满了 .. 没有容下我的地方, 我唯有等待… … 等到他们吃饱的时候就到我了!! 有时候在想, 其实如果他们是一家人也好, 至少那女的可以这么爱他的儿子, 而我就不能了!! 我就像他们从小把我给养大的小媳妇 .. 幸亏现代的父母大至上都不逼婚, 我还可以因此而感到欣慰!! 宁可不嫁, 也不要自讨苦头做别人家的苦命媳妇 .. 我受够了!!!!!!!!

唉!! 我是多么的多余!!啊!! 如果我不是他们的女儿.. 或许他们会活得开心些…… 对不起, 上天要我来到您们的家庭, 如果您们不喜欢.. 我唯有向您们道歉!! 您们的养育之恩, 我会报答的, 您们要快乐的活着 .. .. .. 祝福您们!!

玲啊.. .. 妈叫我了.. 到我吃饭的时间啦!! 下次再谈吧 .. .. 9:08 pm 草~!!

VeRy gOod *&*

LoL.. gOOd.. those BUM get punished dee..!! I'm not happy on people's sad stuff but i m happy that they get a lesson!!At least, they are saved!! Hope those BUM are no more a BUM after that incident!! Thanks God!! Nobody can stop them.. but God!! :) Hope they really learn their lesson and become a good B*a*k sTonE !! shuuuuuuuu .. peace .. my dear dear can have a sweet dream to night!! Really God blessed !! Thank you Jesus, you answered my prayer!! * winks *

Ops.. wanna have a quick pee adee.. kaka~!! Good night guys !! God bless U !!

I'm not asking you to take them out of the world, but to keep them safe from satan's power. They are not part of this world any more than I am. ( John 17 : 15-16 TLB )

wHy yoU waNnA put yOuR aNgEr oN mE ?? #.#

Well, i know that recently you are surrounded with all those bad stuff .. so that u are moody and mad with those guys!! I understand your feeling though those bad stuff are not related with me.. i already try my best to console you.. but you still the same old you.. it doesn't work!! May be because of u mad at that time.. you experienced before right?? especially when the time you console me.. but you will complained that you don't know what to do and you feel so annoying and felt so hard and tough to stay in such situation.. will i did that to you??

I know you are suffering in such circumstances.. console doesn't help much! So i try to turn to the other way..hoping that it may works.. gosh, who know.. you angry with those "rational" words!! May be i am too rational for you. At the moment you are not able to accept those but i kept pushing it into your mind..Im sorry i thought that's the better way to console a guy but end up with... ... >.<" you should know!! You felt so frustrated because of your expectable "sentences" didn't come out from my mouth!! In turn i gave you the wrong and disgusting response!! You feel disappointed with it right??

"piang" !!!!!! My heart shattered into a thousand pieces when i heard that you will never willing to share your sadness with me again.. that's mean we are not going to share everything except some happy stuff though we are 2 soul in 1 heart( 2 in 1). At that moment my small little world..*freeze* and *speechless* :x It's so hurt!! Why you wanna put all your anger on me?? because of you get annoyed by those brainless, selfish, useless, F*** , playful, mischief maker!!!!!!! @#%$&*%@*&#

Those lousy BUM please GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! *society worm* i hate you all..youR sux!! Your are those bum who polluted and destroyed my peaceful world!! "Dark skin" filthy swine cause me to quarrel with my dear dear..my dear feel very fed up and depressed cause of your boar's characteristic!! Those hoggish BLACK STONE, your better be careful!! God will punish your in some other day!!

Luckily we still end up with peace but the pain is there.. no one is perfect..me either :(

天下的父母都是伟大的吗??

天下的父母都是伟大的吗?? 这个问体题在我脑海里翻来复去..我觉得父母应该很伟大吧!! 可是有时候事实总是会让我们醒过来..人们还是得从童话故事中跑出来~!! 回到现实的世界里, 我才发现原来童话只是让我们暂时忘掉现实而已. . . . . .

现时中的父母真的有那般伟大吗?? 无可否认有些父母的确很伟大.. 他们可以为了孩子的幸福而牺牲自己的一切..他们辛辛苦苦的只为了孩子的 “快乐小天堂” , 谢谢您们, 父母!! 但有些父母却不是这个样子的..他们不爱自己的孩子,甚至有些父母没良心的弃婴!!!!!!! 真是 “一种米养百种人”!! 天底下什么人都有..我唯一能做的就是祈祷, 但愿我是个幸运儿!!

其实, 我总算是个不幸中的幸运儿了..我有个完美的家庭, 幸福的家园!! 为何我还那么忧虑呢?? 表面上的幸福不算什么, 家家有本难念的经, 当事人最明了!!吃得饱, 穿得暖.. 这还不够吗? 现在的社会, 这些仅不过是基本条件; 在这竞争力很强的社会里要求的不只是这一些, 他们要的不仅是人功, 而是“高人一等” 的文凭!! 没有了这一张 “纸”, 就很难在社会里谋生!! 各个大学的林立发展, 这就足以证明它的重要性!! “高人一等” 的文凭在现今的社会尔为平凡, 没有了它, 就好像失去了生活支助! 但..很不幸的是这些高等教育都非常昂贵!! 许多贫穷子弟都无法成为 “龙” 与 “凤”!! 虽说有奖学金, 资助金之类的东东, 但它们往往不足以提供生活费..还有贫穷人家那么多..可以帮到的又有几位呢?? 这公平吗? 富有人家可以继续往钱财路走, 那贫民呢??

有些父母会逼驶孩子读书..读书..读死书!! 虽然出发点是好的, 但方法不对, 还是反效果收场!! 可悲吧?! 而有些父母呢? 他们觉得没有必要去接受什么高等教育的, 那是浪费金钱的作为!! 看! 有这么多大学生失业, 您又何苦浪费这比辛辛苦苦赚回来的钱呢? 因此他们宁愿把钱留在身边, 也不愿投资予孩子身上!! 甚至叫孩子放弃学业, 谋生社会, 受害人会是谁?? 我不明白!!!!!! 有些父母报复心很重, 他们以前也无法受高等教育, 而为什么现代的孩子就要比他们还来得幸福呢? 仰或父母害怕所付出的没有回报?? 还是他们担心 “子欲养而亲不在”? 这又可以怪谁呢? 说父母不够伟大? 还是儿女们的贪心? 一而再, 再而三的要求父母让他们往后会过得更好??

或许他们认为女儿更本就没有这个必要来受高等教育, 以后还不是要嫁人? 这是古老思想!! 对所有女性都很不公平!!!!! 嫁不出去的怎么办? 嫁不进豪门的又那来的幸福?? 听过吗.. “靠山, 山会到; 靠海, 海会枯; 靠人, 人会跑; 靠自己最好”!! 对! 还是靠自己来得安稳!! 很可惜不是每个父母都明白这些道理, 明白的也未必会去做!! 自己的幸福重要? 还是儿女们的幸福来得重要? 结果他们看重的是…… 我的读书兴趣再次被他们冷讽!! 好辛苦才爬了上来, 结果又被推倒了..我会不辛苦吗? 我会不难受吗?? 或许生活就是错综和复杂的..虽然前面的路有风风雨雨的阻档, 但我还是得继续前进.. 直到我乘下最后一口气的时候, 我才肯罢休..也知道是时候停步了……

你 的 出 现 就 是 个 让 人 感 动 的“ 惊 喜”！！

嗨～！！万众期待的小女又重出江湖了。。欢呼声响起，小女果然不负众望吧？！“欢迎观临”。。欢迎来到本小姐的小天地！！

嘻。。欢迎词讲完，那就要开门见山了。。请大家不要急，好戏在后头啊！哈！！好啦好啦。。都说不要急了嘛！！还吹我？哼！！！！！要发小姐脾气了。。不说了啦！！怕了吗？嘻！小姐并不小气。。故事还是会继续的，放心吧各位“乡亲夫佬”！！

那一天的那一个晚上，有人默默的在我背后制造了一个浪漫惊喜！！一向“敏感”的我知道那天晚上有项“任务”等着我去揭发了。。嘻！本小姐果然功力不浅。。果真大功告成了！！可怜那位“伟大人物”，他的努力被我这个“小精灵”给吹到『九上云霄』啦。。呵呵！！ 宝 贝， 虽 然 这 次 的“ 惊 喜” 并 不 是 很 “吓” 人， 但 你 的 出 现 就 是 个 值 得 高 兴 的“ 惊 喜”！！他的努力是我 所看不到的，但。。是我的心所感受得到的！他的真诚 打动了我的心。。他的认真让我感觉好幸福！！

难得的浪漫。。难得的惊喜。。难得的爱人。。难忘的20岁生日！！此时的美好时光将会是我最美好的回憶！ 亲 爱 的 谢 谢 你。。 你 的 付 出 我 明 了！！ 一 个 温 暖 的 拥 抱， 一 个 温 馨 的 微 笑， 两 颗 真 诚 的 心， 一 对 相 恋 的 恋 人 心 连 心。。 让 我 俩 的 爱 光 辉 四 方！！

“ 善 意 的 惊 喜”。。 总 是 让 人 期 待！！

God gives u the choices and u r the one who make the decision

Maybe im "special" for some one.. but different people have their own "peRfect" thinking..so the description about me is so difference by u, U,and you.. for some one, i might juz a b*t*h for them..for some one, i maybe an almost perfect gal..for someone, i might be an useless gal..for someone, i might be their good friend or bad uglier enemy..for someone,im maybe a smart lil gal but for some one, im a lazy worm.. some people said im craze; some people said im quiet..some love me; some dislike me.. some people hurt me, but some worth my tears..some don't and never~!! Maybe someone love me is because im a cute lil gal and maybe someone left me is just because im a shortie *winks* no choice!! God created me to be like that..HE got his reason..i'll never go and blame anyone..don't worry then!

If u can accept my characteristic..i will be ur friend then; if u like me, just appear urself infront of me..so that i know "fate" is falling down on me :) Same..if u don't like me..please stay away from me..that's ur choice, i would just keep quiet but make sure u will never regret of ur act!! * friendship forever * i really mean it and i would treasure our frienship, if u can't stand for it, please return it to me..i will pass to the next person who comes into my life.. ~.*

Don't worry, if i don't like u..i will never step into ur life..i will keep my 1st step..so that u will feel better,cuz im not ur enemy since i have no intention and don't have willingness to step into ur life!! So, FRIEND or ENEMY is non of ur business!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, i juz being Gerrine Chin, if u disagree v me.. juz quit my profile!! there is no reason for u to stay here if u feel disgusting..just leave,that's ur decision..yet,i won't stop u!! dun worry thn :) But if u r the one who feel comfortable to stay here.. u'r welcome..!

Few step to be friend v someone :
fate--> interested--> communicate--> understand--> accept and forgive--> friendship

Like or don't like, it is just depends on you.. God gives you the choices and you are the one who make the decision~!!

It is just a short description from *ciLi pAdi* So don't waste too much time on it!! It's helpless and useless for ur future career..Yet, it did not help u to earn even 1 cent!!!!!!!!!!

~ 壽星女的心得 ~ >.<"

今天是元宵節。。也是中國情人節。。 嘻！本小姐也是今日的壽星女哦～！！每個人都忙着慶祝元宵。。忙着拋柑。。而我。。只能留在家里──溫習課業！父母的反對，我唯有在家做乖乖女～！！在這不被注目的“節日”里，沒有慶祝，但我會一個人的好好度過。。我相信媽媽與婆婆一定不會忘記這個特別的“節日”嘻！也不忘了愛人與好友的祝福，謝謝你們！

最近的天氣好悶熱。。我也被周圍環境所影響。。覺得悶悶的，好不開心！！被挨罵的同時，我覺得自己更孤單了。。或許此時，流淚是最有效的辦法！“雨過天晴”哭過后，我覺得比較好。。春天過后的心情，你懂得了多少？

我，無言了。。我辜負了父母，沒有考取佳績，被罵的那一刻，我含着那一口氣，眼淚往肚里吞。。我很不服氣！一個笨笨的我＋聰明的他＝？？答案是失望！！我正努力學習着，或許我的腳步慢了幾十拍。。我走得太慢了。。我對自己也感到很失望 :’( ) 朋友，我沒撲約是因為父母的約束，希望你們明白我無法跨出家門的第一步。。。不要因此而失望，不要說我掃幸，我并不想要這樣。。最傷心的人應該是我！！

不開心就算了。。還要扮什么小丑？！搞到自己都哭了。。最終還不是傷心收場，心靈創傷了？被針刺傷的感覺，你懂嗎？痛。。痛入心扉啊。。相信小丑的背后，淚水是必然的。。可憐！我不是小丑，但我卻嘗到扮演他的苦！！

Yoh..kids.. :P

Hie all.. i just come back from kids comp. Sigh,so hot ya..bad weather..i hate sunny day!! Windy dayzZ..where have u been? Im waiting for uU~!!!!!!! It's really super hot in penang recenlty..quite a long time didn't rain dee..sob sob>.<"(i rain 1st) Yea,guess what's happened today??Lol..today is the 1st day i bcm computer teaching teacher..~!! shocking? haha..dun shock..i just be the kids' teacher..~!!

Arr..think back of last night.. i felt scare and panic and not even can sleep!! I am worrying for the whole night though im worried but i feel excited for this golden opportunity!! I love to teach them..those kids are cute and funny and naughty and.. alot.. unable to list all here..LoL~!! My pretty lil girl student was very manja la..but she is smart!! She makes grimace to me..naughty huh?! haha..but it's ok, kids are always kind, i won't angry them but i sayang them.. hm..QQ~!!

Unfortunately one of my student absent today..aihz,i missed a chance to teach him!! Actually i will be going to "try him" 1st ..see whether i m able to teach him or not cause he is a special kid which is much more different from other children.. he's living in his own beautiful world.. he loves to tell u the story he think about..he has good imagination~!! Ha,he is very creative ! mMmmMm..i hope that i could "catch" him and join his sweet dreams..will have more fun thn..lol.. waiting for next saturday~!!*giGGle*

Thanks god!! Everything is going smooth on this morning.. :) No more worry, no more scare, no more panic.. I enjoyed my 1st lesson..~.*

拖鞋，回來啦～！！

嘻！！一大清早就收到他的好消息。。 。。 。。 他的鞋子找到啦～！！嗯，我感覺到他的喜悅。。心愛的拖鞋，在他期盼下終于重回他的懷抱，想信他會很珍惜那雙離家出走一晚的拖鞋吧！！ 與他分享喜悅的當兒，我的眼淚滑落啦！！因為昨晚。。我做了件好事，呵呵～！！

昨晚，聽到他那燥急的聲音時，我也跟着他不安起來了。。可后來覺得并無大礙，反之我覺得他好可愛。。哈！！他不但沒有去找回那雙鞋，然而還要詛咒哪一個壞蛋似的。。實在有趣！小壞蛋，凡是有神陪同，你愁什么？

禱告歸禱告。。人們總是憂慮着“我要的，神什么時候才會給我呢？”沒有人可以命令神去為他實現自己的愿望！“我要的，請馬上給我！”這譏不是「不勞而獲」嗎？你何不要在等待的當兒也做出一點努力呢？只要盡了力就好，在我們能力范圍以外的事，請交給上帝吧！他會在適當的時刻，賜你所要的！

嘻！聽到早上你那即興奮又驚奇的聲調，我知道是上帝巧妙的結作！眼淚就是證明。。我是多么的高興～誰是我的那個唯一，我。。心里有數！！上帝的安排是最好的。。人們因此而感嘆！嘻，神給的，您就接受吧！他賜予的自有他的原因！在神的祝福下，一切都會順心順意。

嗯！其實不是鞋子找到了。。因為你根本不知該從哪兒找～！幸虧有我。。嘻！！雖然我有心無力，但至少我還記得上帝的同在！感謝神的恩惠，我們要有感恩之心！親愛的，是上帝幫你找會那雙拖鞋的哦～！！當我們無能為力的時候，請記得還有上帝。。他是咱們的阿爸父神，他永遠愛我們！！

懂得感恩的人找到快樂；認識上帝的人。。你有福啦～！！

RainbOw's mOoD *.*

讀書的心情喚不會來.. 可是想念的季節已來到..
在這個春天里 ,我 ……到底怎么了?!

我好想念你.. 距離的煎熬.. 想念的痛楚.. 誤會的發生..
敏感的態度.. 妒忌的產生.. 心靈的脆弱.. 我們受傷了~!!

想要討好你 .. 我卻沒有小丑的淺能 ..
無法逗你開心.. 我唯有怨自己

思念的季節.. 微風輕輕吹着.. 我..好想念你!!
想念你的味道 , 溫暖的擁抱 , 為大的肩膀 , 我愛的笑容 , 難忘的眼神 ………

你的甜言蜜語 , 你的溫柔體貼 , 你的存在 ..
是我活下去的理由
有你的陪伴.. 我會活得更有聲有色!

寶貝, 我愿我是你心目中的開心果 .. 有我在的地方, 就有你的笑容~!!
答應我.. 我們會好好的相愛.. 希望我是那位可為你治傷的護士..
珍惜 , 才是我倆的明智之舉 !!

親愛的 , 我愛你!! 如果你聽得到 .. .. 請回我一個薇笑~!!

** R.L.S **

LoL.. S.H.E ?? dreaming ar?? Yup, you are dreaming now..it's obviously not S.H.E but is R.L.S~!! haha..just for fun la..don't take it serious!! They are my best friends and im the one who post between them~!! Found "ling"?? We took the pic on their (rou n sim) birthday celebration~!! LoL..im not Birthday Girl but i stand in the middle!!*kacau* saja this gal!! ^.~

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LoVe..must looking forward~!!

今天是情人節。。我沒有吃午餐。。情人節＝午餐？？有關系嗎？ 其實是沒有關系的。。只是我睡過了頭，連午餐也省起來了。。這樣也好，可以當做是減肥。。也算是給情人的一份禮物吧～！！

我為了情人的傷心而感到難過；情人為了我以前的舊傷口而感到心疼。。對不起，如果過去的事實太殘忍。。我唯有向你說聲抱歉。。人畢競是有情緒的動物，因為一時的混亂，我覺得不清醒！愛與憐憫之間，我感到矛盾！最終我作了個明智的選擇！我分清了什么是愛，什么是憐憫！！在愛情里是容不下憐憫的；憐憫的就不是愛，而是同情！我選擇了我最愛的他，可他卻懷疑我的真心。。他為我之前的矛盾而感不甘心！！我該怎么做才好呢？我心疼的是。。我無法禰補我先前的迷惑，你眼中的錯誤！看着你一直痛苦下去，我。。好難過！若果你無法接受，無法原諒我當時的混亂。。我只好懲罰自己離開你。。。。。。。我會很傷心，我的存在似乎給你帶來了傷痛～！！

如果你認為我是個討厭鬼。。我會悄悄的離開您的世界；如果你認定了我是您心目中的天使。。我將會永遠的守護着你！！

~ A letter for GOD ~

親愛的耶蘇 ，

今晚的心情很矛盾 。。我雖然還不是個基督徒，但是在不久以前，我已開始相信上帝了。就只因為我相信“他”，所以很想成為基督徒。。可是因為某種原因我止步了。。上帝，我應該怎麼做才不會傷害到大局呢？？請您指引我該走的方向好不好？

命中注定，讓我遇見了一位好好先生，他是我心愛的好好男朋友～！從不后悔愛上了這個好男生。。我做對了選擇，我引以為榮！！可是我唯一擔心的是這個好好男朋友其實并沒有與我心連心一起走向上帝。。上帝賜我良緣，但。。為何他不是上帝的兒子？？為何他無法接受上帝呢？這是個難題，我不會解決，也沒有能力去解決。。唯有托上帝的忙，請您給我個答案好嗎？如果上帝認定他就是我的真命天子，請您就讓這把我給推倒的困難給解除掉吧！很希望他是我的唯一，我不想失去一個我這麼深愛的他。。我會很努力的禱告。。禱告。。

問題的存在，我倆傷透了心～！！明明不想讓對方傷心，可是還是不小心的把對方的心給割傷了。。你為了我的悲傷而感心疼；我為了你的心疼而流淚。。明明相愛的兩個人，為了無法控制的困難而感憂慮，我們都很可憐。。在我快要奔潰的當兒，幸虧有耶蘇的同在。。無論遇到什麼困難，我都會禱告。。還記得我與他的相遇是上帝巧妙的安排。。我一直都相信緣份，相信上帝的結作！在我不斷的禱告下，上帝成全了我和他。。我鼓起勇氣接受一個陌生的他。。上帝的祝福，我和他很有默氣。。感恩之心，感謝上帝保佑，我會珍惜這段難得的良緣～！！

上帝，請您為我解除心中的結。。I will pray hard for what I hope for.. If there is your will, please arrange all the things to be smooth.. thank you, Jesus!!

reSult is cOmiNg out tomorrow..

~Hi~ everyone.. soi mui is here again..guess wat??A Level result is coming out tomorrow..im worrying..so scare ar man!! damn it..i reli reli scare to noe it..but i cant wait for the day comes.. >.<*

Omg,i cant fall asleep tonite..i cant sleep at all!! feel hungry summore..am i pity enuf?? aihz..dun1na get a bad surprise on tml morning..God..help me pls..

Aihz, why so susah1?? i feel uncomfortable la..nervous..panic..wat should i do rite now?? Juz wait for the second to get my result? worst..i cant sleep..i reli cant fal zZzZzz..how i gotta wait until the next day?? hm..hope everything is goin fine tml as everybody say "tomorrow is never die" rite??

~情為何物?~

什么是愛??什么是情??“愛情” 這兩個字,看似簡單 .. 其實其意義非比尋常~!!

憑這“簡單” 的兩個字就足以把世人搞雜了!!世界上的男男女女都在不停的尋找真愛.. 那又有誰得到他們所謂的幸福? 又有多少個人能夠了解真愛是什么?! 或許愛情是沒有真正的定義的吧~!! 當緣份來臨時, 也意味着愛請的到訪.. 為什么會有緣無份呢?? 這是丘比特的安排? 仰或是人們為愛解脫的借口?

有些人正在盲目的追求愛情, 希望自己早日掉入愛河里! 這就是所謂的嘗不到時就覺得它很完美.. 有些人則不敢談戀愛, 深怕自己受傷害.. 這又是為什么? 沒有勇氣面對愛情嗎? 愛情后遺癥嗎?還是跌倒了,不讓自己重新爬起來的機會??
正在戀愛中的人, 陶醉于愛情里, 正在愛河里爭扎着.. 為愛而活, 為愛而犧牲所有,甚至寶貴的生命.. 連呼吸都困難.. 為什么在愛情帶來歡樂的同時也把悲傷給帶來了呢? 難到世間上就沒有兩全其美的事物嗎? 那你認為戀愛中的人是幸福的嗎??

在愛情里最避忌的是什么呢? 缺乏信任? 勇氣? 自信? 大男/女人主意? 欺騙? 小氣? 吝穡? 多疑? 自私? 嘮啕? 誤會? 還有.. 等等.. “誤會”是愛情的至命傷.. 誤會的存在破壞了愛情的完美.. 可惜吧? 更可悲的是雙方都是無辜者!! 誰人可以破解這怕人的誤會呢? 誤會的出現, 人們的吵架, 很傷感情吧?! 我感到無奈.. 我無法阻止誤會的發生.. 心好疼啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!砰~ 心碎的聲音.. 您聽到了嗎??

我們為愛而喜悅.. 為愛而蹦潰.. 歡樂時, 我們就該盡情享樂!! 悲傷時, 也不忘了流眼淚!! 嘻! 女人比男人幸運的是她們懂得流眼淚.. 不能流淚的那一方總是會比較辛苦~!! 流淚并不代表脆弱而是發泄的其中一種方程式而已!! 人生路上坎坷多端, “自己跌倒, 自己爬” 是天經地義的事!! 本來嘛.. 自己跌倒就應該自己爬, 又有什么不可以?大不了再重新振作起來,讓自己更小心的走!! 這是為自己負責任的小小動作而已!! 能夠 “自己跌倒,自己爬的人” 也該為此引以為榮吧!! 來, 干杯~!!

愛與被愛只是一線之間, 相愛的人會感受到愛與被愛的存在.. 因而感覺到幸福的美~!!

what's the hell is goin on????????

Damn it..why like that one?why the connection line got problem recently and why the incharge people never inform us??shit!!we pay for them and they treat us like that?what's the problem is goin on?what's the hell happened on the tmnet,jaring,streamyx..??sob sob..damn sad with it..cause i disconnect always when im chatting v my frenz!!this will cause people misunderstanding,make people quarrel,make people suffering..WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE CONNECTION SYSTEM???????????I feel "phek chek" with it!!!!!!!!Argh~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!heLp#$%@@*&^@!$^*^$%

ThE DaY U wenT aWay..

那天晚上..我哭了..明明不被允許掉出來的淚，最終不聽話的眼淚還是從眼睛里滑落出來..可憐,我無法控制自己的眼淚!!

那一刻,我再也無法言語..嘴巴一張開,眼淚就滑下..再多的不愿意,再多的不舍得也只能壓印在心里! 這或許是“有口難言”吧!!所有的不舍,所有的悲傷都呈現在臉上,我相信你是感受得到的..此時無聲勝有聲!不會說話的眼睛,是最動人的心..對望的那一刻,我們都覺得自己好可憐..sob!!sob!! >.<”

臨走前..那熱情,溫馨,體貼,溫暖的擁抱,讓我久久不能自己..陶醉于其中，我喜歡抱抱,不想回去殘忍的現實..可是,人生嘛,就是得從夢中蘇醒過來..你還是得走您的路,我是得繼續我的途徑..我們還是得面對分離的痛苦!! 所謂:天下無不散之筵席.我們唯一能做的就只有--等待--

這一切的一切,或許是上天善意的安排吧!!我們會因此而更加珍惜彼此,會因為距離而更加想念,會因為短暫的分離而學習獨立..也因為這次的分離,我們期盼着下一次的聚會!!也許嘗到了分離的苦,我們才會覺得原來相聚是那么的甜!! 親愛的,只想告訴你,真愛是經得起考驗的!!我們是會被祝福的!!嘻!

<<痛>> .. >.<"

痛。。分為兩種：一是肉體上的痛，二則是心靈上的痛。。
人生就必承受這些不可思議的痛嗎？不管您愿不愿意，你也得承受這些“痛”！！何為人生呢？生老病死是人生必經之路。。痛只不過是它的調味料罷了！

肉體上的痛是人們所看得見的，所感受及體會得到的，是讓人看了會心疼及使人憐憫的。。肉體的痛是短嶄而實在的。。哪里有血；哪里就會有痛的感覺！
然而心靈上的痛是人們所無法體會的。。它很抽象。。只有當事人明了！！它似空氣般讓你看不到，捉不着。。但它卻偏偏住在你心深處，讓你感受到它的存在，它的痛。。有多少個人可以承受的了心靈上的痛呢？

肉體的痛往往會帶來心靈上的創傷，然而傷的存在也意味着痛的來臨，間接中心靈上的痛產生了。。 ：’（ 有時候我們會因他人的痛而感覺到痛。。哈！這應是因人而異吧！我會！！或許是同情，或許是感性吧！！嘻！那你是屬感性行的嗎？

痛。。是致使流淚的主因。。若沒有感覺到痛又有誰會哭呢？除非有灰塵或其它意外吧！！好好珍惜您身邊的人吧，不要傷極他們那弱小的心靈，只因心靈的通是很難治好的。。甚至更有人因此而流下陰影。。承受不住心靈痛折磨的人更會得到神經病的“侵臨”，可悲吧？是不是每個人都能自己跌倒，自己爬呢？？愿上帝保佑！！阿門！！

wHeN U aRe AloNe .. wAt would u thiNk ??

Im bored..that's why I am here again!! ~.~ ofcuz im alone in my room, facing the PC which can take me to all over the world within the uses of internet..im such a poor gal here.. Sigh, i need to stay at home most of the time.. im a pity lonely gal.. :'()

New Year,new wishes,new hair style,new cloths,new shoes,new handbeg,new car,new sem,new house,new hat,new books,new friends,new topic,new calendar,new toys,new impression,new.. ..izzit all those things must change to the new one? If really so..then should i change to bcm a new gal or maybe should i change to bcm a guy??should i move to other country?should i change to the new course?should i change my attitude?should i change my characteristic?should i change to a new name?should i change a new boy friend and should i change my papa & mama as well??????

Ha! Ha! Ha! Im juz crapping here..ofcourse not all of them should change to the new one or maybe some of them are not possible to change to the new one..If possible,we should appreciate what we are having now..whatfore gonna change to a new one?? Sometimes, there are greed,desire,excuse for us to buy more new things for ourselve during new year time..hehe~!! New year doesn't mean to change everything we've to the new one,right?

Anyway,im juz bored..so i crap alotZz here .. hm..wanna cry dee.. :'(((((((

An unforgetful nEw yeAr eVe + 1 jAn 2005

Hie all.. i juz back from KL few days ago..hm..have alots fun there especially on the new year eve,haha!! I miss the time when me n my darling n my very good fren in Q bar!!!!!!! That was a great meeting..it happened in last minute!! it was just a *surprise* for me..i love it!! God blessed!! Oh yea!! We celebrate the new year in Qbar..there was my 1st time new year celebration in KL..in bar n v my dear dear..at the same time too,my very very lovely good fren oso there v me..it's really really great!! I miss u guysssssss ....... argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dear..it is the 1st time i celebrate new year with u also..the 1st time i go pub with u..haha!! Never know that he will dance so well..shocking me still..crazy dude..muahaha!! such a new *discovery* of my life!!!!! but bad thing happened at midnite..guess wat? he vomit..haha!! mayb he drink too much..so pity but i feel funny !! keke~!! Nevermind, he gives me a golden opportunity to be a ^nurse^ for him @.@ hm..not bad la..huh?! Im satisfied to be a good nurse there?? Yiepie..dear,we did celebrate ur 20th Birthday together, X'mas together and New Year together..we did it all those in the 1st time..haha!! I appreciated it..but one thing i worry is..we cant celebrate valentines together..so down.. :'()