保佑它！

你是一路来与我一起长大的好朋友，
感谢你陪我尝了生活中的酸甜苦辣，
懂我的人，你是其中一个，这是我的福气！

虽然今晚，我们都面对了一个生命的无常，
听到那痛苦的呐喊叫人难受！
我知道你很不好受，我何不是也和你一样？
我们都在心里哭泣，但这是一场意外，谁都不想！

我默默祈祷它会平安无事，主求你保佑它，主啊，请你改变这一场悲剧！
我们真的好心疼，我们都不想这样。。
我们好对不起，真的好对不起。。

哎。。。。。。好难过，今晚要怎么过？



p.s 谢谢今晚你特地送来的礼物，
      希望你的好心上帝会被感动，救救那脆弱的小生命！

徘徊

还在原地徘徊，
是我缺乏勇气；
还是我错过了？


p.s 我没有盲目，但我麻木了！

多一年。。

我们还有多少个十年可以去等待？

你说，再等多一年吧。。

我很无奈，但是爱情是双方面的。。

我想我们应该还会有很多个一年吧，只是我们再也回不去那一个青春的岁月！

p.s. 如果直得等待的，请你让我看见希望；要不让我这一年就走！

Ops.. He hasn't propose yet (inspiring by a touching story)

It’s 2014 now! Can’t imagine time do really flies and it means that I’ve been blogging for the freaking 10 years!!

Omg, this blog is indeed my little space of memories that I can dedicate to myself.

Before I could start to blog today, I would like to share a story that really touched my heart! (beware it’s gonna be a long blogging though but pls be patient and finish it) *winks*

“the story begin as a little sweet couple they used to live happily together in a small house, both have stable jobs and incomes and both share and do thing equivalently. The girl used to tell the guy : I wanted to marry you and why don’t u marry me? And the guy used to replied: I still have a lot to do to make my career success and I don’t mean to not marry you, it is just that I’m wanting to create a surprise proposal for u instead of u asking me!’

Hence, the girl though feel disappointed but still she smiles sweetly as usual as she used to be. She is a girl who really have a sweet smile to cheer the people around. One day, this girl requested her boyfriend to accompany her to shop but she got rejected by the guy. As usual, the guy is always busy on his work. It’s ok the cheerful girl knows to find her way out to cheer herself. She went out and shop for 10 set of outfit, shoes and ties. She went home with a satisfied smile and warn the guy that must like what has she bought! The guy looked at her and become stunt and scolded her why would u wanted to waste so much money on this? That girl just smile to the guy and promise that she won’t repeat this the next round and that night itself, the girl told the guy that she is going back to home to accompany her mom because she has some concern over the mom, worried the little brother’s wife might bullied her mom. They cuddling each other and smile sweetly into their dream for the one last night for god knows!

The very next day, the girl went home. After few weeks later, the girl was still not back to the couple’s little house and the guy started to missing this girl and now he could see how much she means to him. He called home and the brother told the guy that the girl has something yet to settle and she will be back soon. However few weeks have passed by and the guy can’t hide his feeling but to say: “I wanted to marry you, please come home!” the girl tears badly but she has finally listen to this as what she wishes for so long. One day morning, the brother gave an emergency call to the guy and ask him to fly home quick and brought him to the hospital and then at this moment, only the guy realized the reason why the girl have left for so long it is just because she has suffered from the stomach cancer, as she was at her last stage that she don’t wish the guy to see her deteriorated condition! The guy then blame himself for not paying enough attention to the girl and didn’t notice that she was actually carry the heavier burden all alone all this while! But everything was too late now.

Few months after the girl has gone to heaven, a letter has posted to the guy’s house and the contents are as such.. “ baby, are u missing me rite now? Yes, u must be. So far, I’ve only seen u cried for once and that was the time I wanna say a break up with u and now I don’t wish to see u cry for me now but I’m selfish enough to need u to remember me for the next 10 years! But you only can take that 10 days in a year to miss me and continue this for the 10 years, please baby. The 10 outfit that I‘ve bought you, is for u to wear it on the day that I‘ve passed away and u wear that outfit to see me. After the 10 years, we promise to forget each other!”

If there is a next life, I promise I wanted to be a healthy baby and be with you for the rest of my life, again!.....”

Till here, I’ve already cry like there is no tomorrow, this story it’s just so touching yet it is so sad! The moral of the story ask us to appreciate the people that we loved and don’t do anything that make yourself regret or it is too late to do something and live the life with regrets.

To be frank, it is just a spark of a moment and I’m feeling so old now!

Still used to remember people used to ask me do you have a boyfriend in 10 years ago? And for those seniors in my family, they used to say, don’t get involve into any boyfriend-girlfriend relationship while you’re still in your studies!

However, time flies and things changed and the seniors changed their words too! These days they used to ask me, when are you going to get married? Are you ready for a marriage yet (marriage include household, raising child, biggest responsibility and a lifetime commitment)? What are you waiting for?

Yes, perhaps I’m indeed waiting for something, for that something called: “proposal”!

A marriage is mean to be a once in a lifetime thing and I’m not going to surrender that easily to a guy who don’t appreciate this. If you really love me and u’r ready to commit yourself into a lifetime’s commitment, please come to propose and I’m sure I’ll lock for my heart in a safe for you to keep it forever, and the pre-condition must be, your vows, your promises to keep my heart in good shape till the end of my life =) and I’ll do the same to u in return! (I’m sorry I’m living in a fairytale still, but marriage is once a lifetime thing, can’t you make this sweet for the sake of keeping it as a memorable memory for us both?)

Ironically, if a guy that don’t carry the gut to make a proposal, he seemed to be not ready yet and why should I pressure him all over again and again? How true, that they say age doesn’t matter in a marriage? But I’ve always asked myself how long more could I wait? I don’t know. I’m sure the lord will make a way for sure!

Out of so many people who have asked this Q that when do I want to get married? This guy who used to say he loved me used to ask me very frequently! What the heck? Oh well, he is the history today, for me, he just wanted to make sure that I’ve married to someone who I really can counted for. I thank you for his generous heart and his blessings as well. Perhaps, do give me sometimes, I’ll proved to you that I’m blessed with gifted fate! However, each time you asked, it hurts a bit though, so please blessed me and don’t ask again and I’ll definitely get to be with my Mr. Right soon with your abundant of blessings!

p.s. if I ever touched your heart please air out before it is too late. And yeah I promise to love you the moment I still have my breath =) I have never be a rich people in my life but by having you, is my big treasure and I’m the richest people in the world!

p.s. I love you.