This date, you came to me and asked if he has invited me to
go to his wedding…
And I thank god luckily it is not your wedding though =)
You used to ask me when will I be getting married and I knew
the little you inside is not purely wanted to be my “ji mui” but I see fear in
you! So do I too?
I know you care but Life just can’t be simple yet the
world is so small!
And my answer to the invitation was a “NO”. We have been
lost contact ever since the day I’ve decided to let go and we are no longer
friend. He is neither my enemy. Just that I didn’t get the invitation and who
knows I’m just a passed by stranger to him?
To remember that day which was in 7 years back, and it
feels like yesterday!
Trying to recall back how I cried hard in front the PC just
to read his mail that’s really touched my heart yet I always knew he was never
my chosen one. I still believe my decision to let him go was the right one and
so that he could get someone who really into him now!
And finally he has found someone real to be with him for the rest of his life and this is what I’ve asked God for – to see him showered
with blessings!
Thank god for taking care of him and granted him the wife of
his dream today!
I’m happy for him at the corner of the world. It’s worth our
tears and crying in few years back to see a simple guy, with a pitiful look on
the face and posed a broken heart. Now that he’ve found her that who can mend
his broken heart into a perfectly fit heart, it does really make me a thousand
ease. Heartfelt congratulation to him on his newly wed! He is the man and he
has the balls to make his new chapter of life real!
Come to think about it now, I should have worried about
myself. Whenever I thought I’ve found someone right and I’ve got beaten up! After
all, life is really a bitter sweet for me. Dear Lord, am I forgetting to pray
for myself? Yet I know your fatherly love wouldn’t have leave me alone.
For my real friends who are concern,
I've always heard about all the weddings and got a lot of wedding invitations, however it will never be my turn yet. I'm sick of it though. Don't ask if I' m still unmarried, if I do, I've my reason not to explain to the world. It hurts me a little each time a question like this been pointed out to me! (it hurts the most, when someone incite with intention just to insult me. Marriage is not a kiddy play, it is a huge decision of life to make! U need to have the ball/guts and a brain that can think thoroughly plus the urge to walk down the aisle..)
If I really never ever get married, dear friends, please be my companion,
this is because they said if you didn’t owed anyone in your previous life, you
wouldn’t need to marry anyone in this life; same goes to if I never be granted
a child, please be understanding and don’t take me as a joke. Please allowed me to love your children as much as you do.
If I meant to leave at my early age, this is HIS plan that I
should have ended my suffering here. Think positive, who knows the house in
heaven is built and it’s time for me to go? For sure I know, the great dad in
heaven is waiting lovingly up there =) So, you don’t have to be sad. I’m
blessed there for sure! I come to understand this, if my dream never come true
in the world that created by HIM, for sure my dream will make a real one up
there! That is eternal life to live!
Dear lord,
“I come to you with a broken heart and if I can’t
find anyone to mend my lil poor soul but I know you can do it for me! We love
others is because you love us too as your child. You remind me to love. If you
were to bring me back and I believe you will make it a peaceful way for me and
the peoples that I loved! I should not feel fear. Thank god for the sign for an
early discovery. I hope I’m not too late to being appreciative and I’ll carry
on with the plan that you’ve for me in store!”
