God's summon!

This post is a delayed post which was supposed to be written last week. However due to the overwhelming schedule, no mercy to squeeze time a little.

Today, I wanted to post on a talk given by pastor Chew on 2 weeks ago! As for custom, I used to seek guidance in the church whenever I'm in the mist in life. So it always happened that I can successfully seek it from God during the so many services. Thank god, you're great!

Thing was buggling upon my head for the past few weeks, I got some concern on health. I knew I needed god's guidance so much on how to cope with unavoidable pain in life. While I'm looking forward to go to church and there were so many obstacles and finally I got to manage to attend the church on the last two Saturday! And that's my very last Sat at the SIB, KL, cause I'm moving away from the city for good and god has answered my prayer! The talk that day was about "How do you response in your hard time?" "Pain is inevitable; miserable is optional!" This is really the one topic that was indeed hit me. I'm long to hear this!

Many of us prayed and asked why would this thing or that thing happened to us while we're all the time doing good? It's even worse when some Christians asked why would god let's bad thing happen upon them? Pastor said, do u think that you're a christian and you don't have to die? No! In fact, everyone of us will be going to face death one day. He said, don't blame anything or everything and don't blame god! When you're in your hard time, do response and not react. It is the inner posture that leading to a favourite long term result!

Alternatively, please ask god what is HIS purpose?

Romans 8:28 - All things work together for good to them who love HIM and who are called according to his purpose.

He reminds us that God will never leave us nor forsake us. We have to understand that God has a purpose behind it. So seek for it. Understand that pain/trial tribulation are part of God's perfect will! You needed to be patient during your trying time, as patience endurance; steadfastness perseverance, God more focus on your character! So, be strong, stay strong, don't give up and seek for god's love.

http://youtu.be/GC5uk_Gw1rA

Yes, Jesus is the centre of it all. When it is darkest moment God does his deepest work! Yes, some pain is inevitable, endure it and seek for God's purposes. Lord, you're the healing God! Lord, I don't understand why does this pain occured and please pardon me, I pray to see your true purpose upon a painful sickness in within.  Lord, you're the healing God! Please heal the sick men and let them be healed by you! Shape us with a strong build character to cope with the pain by your means. We shall see sunshine and we shall feel your love for us all!

p.s.

Just trust God!

He who has delivered us,

He will deliver us,

He will continue deliver us.

Trust God who raises the dead!

Eye lid skipping!

Heard that this might not be a good sign and it's indeed true that all shits coming along its way though. The eye lid has been skipping for the past few days and i'm now in the trouble!

Been insomnia for so many nights and tonight that's even worse! Other problem let's put aside, I can't make my head any burdened now, was fainted in the afternoon in the office but thank god that it don't gives a big harm, i'm awake back! (reason? guess when god wanna bring me home and that's my time to be cheer)

I've own this really stupid "pah lia" car - Perodua Viva! It's been giving me problem ever since i'm owning it Ironically it was a brand new car that gives lousy performance by being a basic car. First, it's the gear box problem and even after 1 year of time, they couldn't even bother to trace out what's the evil inside! Secondly, the car make out some weird sound once in a blue moon whenever you make a corner turn. Then now the car's alarm system is creating problem! The point is the car is only 2 years plus old and started to give problem since 1 year back! What good car they claimed that a VIVA is? I'm seriously having a huge heartache by owning a car as lousy as this!

I just need a peaceful mind while I'm preparing for a battle to comes, somehow, it seems so difficult. It's even unfortunate that at this very moment when I really need some mentally support, and I've been kept in denial. Lord, this life is full of challenges, I do really need more strength to carry forward.

Tonight, another disappointment night, I will just stay until the service shop open in the morning. I'm all with a broken heart. Just need to be tough and get healed. Y.Y *pray*

p.s. When bad things happen, you see the right one stay and others gone! 

Go away pls!

Somehow, I believe that I cannot keep too many inside, and truly glad that here is the only place that I can lash out at, perhaps on some particular matter..

If everything else allowed, I would really love to shout out loud at your face :

You fcking beggar! Don't keep on "reporting" to me the every single damn day because I don't fcking care and if you can please get out the hell of me!!!

Huge THANK if you never return again (I'm praying so hard) because you're such an irritating, annoying, disturbing guy! Please be a man and fck off!

p.s. Don't act smart! you're just not my cup of tea and please roll yourself far far away!

不要乞讨爱情!

时光不留人，专眼间咱们都到了谈婚论嫁的年龄。。

「朋友们都结婚去了」，

这首歌是为了80后的我们唱的吗？很恰时的一首好歌！

有些朋友真的天赐良缘，都顺顺力力的娶嫁了。。

然而，也有那正在单身的几位。。

的确没有法律规定什么时候就非嫁娶不可，有的是最底年龄的限制，至少18才可以结婚！

其实都是希望真的有足够思想过后，才可谈婚。。

总之是要想好好才去结那一个婚！

然而多少个单身贵族，还是会因为年龄，而慌了。。

看着别人都主制自己的小家庭，很幸福，很想跟大对，

可是你就有可能随随变变找个人就结了这一辈子的承诺吗？

你会后悔，如果您还活着。。

我们难到是为了大众而活吗？

如果真的要这样随变，

那么此生真的白过了。。

不急，不急，能急得了的就不能成大事！

那个对的人还在迷宫找寻着向您走的方向。。

朋友说的确要找个你很爱，而他又很爱你的人好难。。

我说，这就是难能可贵嘛！

所以，真的不要因为害怕年龄，

而牺牲了自己原有的幸福！

更不要卑薇的去乞求爱情，

因为乞讨回来的不是爱情！

忘了结婚那件事，不被施压。。

那只不过是法律上的证明，

其实真正对爱情认真的人，

没有那一个所谓的证书，

一样会守护住那难能可贵的缘份！

所以，你要记得你单身，

那是因为你的选择，

直到那个真正的他、她出现。。你才肯罢休！（才对！）

想太多，不完美！

看着她眼角的泪，我很感伤，无助也无言。。

她的悲伤，真的把我拉回从前。。

那一股痛，我想这一辈子都难忘记。。

就像破悴的玻璃，重拾还能完美吗？

背叛，

是谁下的魔咒？

它让多少人自暴自弃？

让多少人悔不当初？

让多少人悔了青春，一辈子，甚至一个生命？

唯有打开心结，才可以重新站起来！

有些疤痕，真的是会永不消失的。。

痛是可以渐渐淡化的。。生命可以再更精彩！

只能期望不会再有那一些不忠的人再一次在旧伤口上洒盐！

只要不贪览，选择了就坚忠到低，真的好难吗？

如果真的还没能看好，那就先不要下赌注。。

因为有些东西，是一辈子都睹不起的！

啊，男人女人，要忠诚啊！

你问：“为什么天下的女人都喜欢坏男人啊？”

我很想说，我们都以为我们爱的都是好男人！

可惜最后却不是。。原来只是给爱情蒙骗了双眼！

当你又问我，那好男人与坏男人，你会选谁？

我说：“我从都不曾真正知道我爱上的是否是个好男人？”

我，真的可以选吗？

你说我是幸运的，然而我只能微笑回应。。

在我心里，我真的期求这一次我可以真的很幸运的幸福着。。

如果一颗心，就像这样的玻璃。。你说再给重重的一个打击，后果会怎样？

p.s.人生短暂，只做对的事情，不算太多吧？

即不伤人也不伤己。。爱情，是用爱心来营造的！

结束很ｉｎｄｅｐｅｎｄａｎｔ的日子!

在外流浪旧了，就会想回家，这是真的！

时光不等人啊。。转眼间，就已经六年了，但我依然很年轻 ＝ｐ

说实在的，每一个在外独自生活的人，有那一个没有吃过苦头？

年少时候的我，就是个活跃份子，很向往那个可以独来独往，不受约束的生活，

然而尝试多年了这样的日子，心虽然很自由，但灵却往往是寂寞的。。

在外生活旧了，我更懂得亲情的可贵，因为距离，有聚就会有离，所以我学会了珍惜！

在外真心的朋友，就会像兄弟姐妹般的，守望相助，我们一起欢笑，一起哭闹的日子，有您们的陪伴，您们的恩惠，我永记心中。。您们的友宜是无价的！

也很感恩，第一次的第一份工，就遇见了贵人，他是个很棒，很好心地的老板，善解人意，又慈悲，如果不是他，我不会拥有一般佳绩与见视！

也因为独自生活，

我学会了：（书本上学不到的）

几样拿手好菜，下次就能称得上：“进得橱房，出得厅堂了”！

除此，还学会了换灯泡，修理家器，修厕所的小小工程。。很有一手之技！

待人处事的道理，要礼上往来，更懂得辨别，谁是好人，谁不是！

勇敢，打倒所有那些很可怕的昆虫；刻服对黑暗的恐惧，也战服心中的孤寂！

防备之心不可无，提高个人保护的醒觉意思。。

实行了自己跌到，自己爬的真实名句。

也体会到了忍一时风平浪静的真理。

从此，我不再须要：

一个人逛街，一个人煮菜，一个人吃饭，一个人对着电视发呆。。

一个人对着镜子诉苦，哭泣。。

害怕打死昆虫，后又迟迟不敢入睡。。

害怕黑夜的黑而不能安心入睡。。

孤独，孤单。。

塔上无数次的飞机与长途巴士，来会南北大道，

也不必在机上因为不舍得而默默的流泪，

装坚强，生病了，还要装着不病的声音在电话上报平安，

也不须压欲着眼泪，其实我很想念在电话那头的你们。。

那么独力，很累！

但是，我也会想念：

这儿陪我一起成长的朋友。。您们很棒！

那些一起高歌起舞，一起看演唱会，一起开夜车，一起吃喝玩乐，一起在异乡庆祝大节日；

也会很怀念，我们常到的“高佬”ｍａｍａｋ档，谈心说情，直到深夜。。你们永远是最好的倾述对像，没有一刻不爱你们！

还有一起很疯逛的到云顶去吹吹冷风。。漫无目地，轻松自在的。。

想起那些没有经济压力的日子，真开心！

也因为有了你们的陪伴，我的生活才那么年轻有活力！

谢谢你们，写到这里，我就已经很想哭了。。。。。。。。。。。

爸说我是个ｓｕｐｅｒｈｅｒｏ－ｌｉｎｇ，其实我是装的！装着很坚强，是为了减少您们对我的担心。 现在可以不用在装了，就好像把心口大石给丢了似的！

这个灯，那天我爬得高高的，爬上爬下的，装了好旧，总于从见光明！希望以后我都可以不要再做这样的粗工！这把灯，就拿来祝福你和我，照着我们，让我们前途一遍光明！

p.s.有开心，也有许多不舍，人生嘛，就是会有欢聚欢散。。唯有珍惜与记得常连络噢！