Thing that recalled the pain!

I hate to say this but it recalls!

There was this moment, I picked up the small piece of thing and it brought back the bitter-sweet memories. It’s BITTER more than sweet, hence it’s really bitter or I should say it’s not sweet at all! I even felt so disgusting when recalled! Immediately after that I tore off the pieces and throw away! I just hate them to be in my life even though it is just a small piece of shit but it does have a big impact on me! It brings me back to my bitter past! *damn*

It was definitely one part of my life that I’m very much unwilling to recall. But only if I have the choices on hand! Yes, I hate to remind myself that I hate you so much!

…Since the day I let go, I forgive as well. However, once it hurts, it left a forever wound there! Thus, how could I forget such a pain in depth? It’s just so horrible and I can’t imagine how can I be treated in such a way? I was all been shattered apart! I’ve thrown away my pride! I’ve became a “YES” gal! I’ve became so not me and you’ve change my world upside down! At the end of the day, I got all the blame from you!...

Now that I’ve turn back and see myself a foolish last time. How can I be such a moron in the past? Indeed, I’ve made myself so blind that I couldn’t withdraw and drown! That’s how sad life could be. You’ve messed up my life, screwed me up and dragged me into hell! Frankly speaking, if it is not of all the peoples that love me stand by me and I wouldn’t be here, today! It’s true and you can imagine you’re such an evil ever in my life! I was lucky enough to get rid of you and manage to get up bit by bit and I’m proudly to say that I’m all fine now!

It’s a real night mare in my life and I thank god that it has already became a past! Lesson gained! There is a saying like this, it says that if god were to take away something in your life; HE will be granted you something back in return! That’s true, and that’s why we all live up with hopes in heart, isn’t it?

To all the peoples that love me, I’m blessed with your love and kindness! I’m very thankful and u guys will be remembered forever! To the one that hurts me, you don’t deserve any of my valuable time and I don’t hate you anymore. Wish u luck!

…and to the one I’m sorry with, thousand of apologizes!

p.s. God will mend your broken heart if you give him all your pieces!

God has something better for your life than what you left behind!

New ever stuff after quarter of my life!

Yea, I’ve always been fancy about wearing spectacles!

Hence, for the every single damn year, I went for the eye check up and secretly hope that I’m “qualified” to wear one! However, it did not turn out to be good for years! So you can see my beautiful eyes still! (They say one!) LoL.. they opinioned that I’m good without eyewear, but I don’t care, I want one! *sorry*I believed that there’s another “beauty” in me with specs on!

So this year it couldn’t be any other exceptional year too. Last week during the public holiday, I went for the eye check up and I eagerly picked one 1^st before they are able to test my eyes! After that, the boss asked to have a look on my old specs. Huh? I was like, owh, sorry I don’t have one before *blush*. Hence there I went for the eye test and it seemed like all are just fine, inside me saying: “u better don’t be too FINE”!

Ah ha, guess what, I’m qualified this time though my myopia power is only 50 on one side and the other 75! Anyway I’m happy enough! Thank god for granting good eyes but still a pretty good excuse to wear the specs! *grins – jumping jumping* Though the boss didn’t suggest me to have one but also never deny me to get one, thus, I have my very own one now! I heard they said if you are suffering from myopia, then u better wear specs else it would become worse? Anyway I hope the power maintained. As I only wish to wear specs whenever I want only (for the sake of being good looking!) LOL.. I can’t help myself but sorry to say so, I’m vain! Yes, I do! Wahahaha..;D

Here my treasure in pink! (after all I’m a pink lady so don't call me blue!) =p

p.s. this cool lil specs can turn into dark whenever there is too bright a sun! However it cost me a kick ass pain on the price! ><” (that’s a price to pay for everything good, isn’t it?)

Awwwhhh..I just love this lil piece pretty much though I don’t wear it all the time. But I’m kinda happy to keep this cool ever stuff in my life! (wei 1^st ever specs ler!)

It’s yours glorious ~

I remembered the last month of this day! It is still clearly planted on my mind! It was the ever happiest day throughout the year. To be honest, two of the 2010 resolutions have been came true! *cheers* It’s all about my hard work yet I never forget to be thankful though. *grins* There were so many of the sleepless nights, there were tears spilled out uncontrollably, there were days that I was lacked of appetite and became skinny and “not-so-nice-looking-face” with panda eyes and bla bla bla.. but it is all worth it now. Perhaps I could turn back and smile to the path of history and feel satisfy!

Additionally, out of my expectations, few of them came true as well! Aww.. what a good year of 2010 is this? *HUGE THANKS* This I truly appreciate! There are thousands of words inside but you know word alone couldn’t explain much of the feeling right now but you will see. =)

After all, I thank HIM for what I have today! Praise lord for sending ya to me (ahem, you know who you are) *winks*

p.s. i'm happy now and very thankful! ^^

Song of the Sea

p.s. His <3