Dear Lord please take away my tears..

It’s coming to an end of the year… still left one more day to the coming year of 2008! Should I be excited though? No! I love year 2007! Seriously I feel so reluctant that year 2007 is coming to an end! My beautiful love story begun here at the beginning of the year of 2007, beside I got my good result at the beginning of the year as well, in addition, that’s my new life here in KL for the year! Sadly to say that I've left my family and came here all alone to further my studies (i miss home all the time - home sick) but god is so good, blessed me with another happy family here… I feel like home at that time!

Everything seems quite well managed, settled for the beginning of the year. Everything looks so peacefully and joyfully. Sincerely, I m very happy with my new life and new beginning here, I thought I was so blessed! What I thought is just I was so blessed!!! But am I really blessed? Howcome when year end come, everything that I owned come to an end as well? My dear lord, why u need to take all this away when the year is going to an end? Why I left with all these pains after the beautiful things that bless me?

I feel the pain with every heart beats, inside I m dying piece by piece… Dear lord, can you please take away my tears? I need you right now to heal my broken heart. I m dying soon cause my heart is bleeding. It’s so hurtful to get breath… every second I breath, I hurt the wound of my broken heart. God, please tell me how long could I still holding on like this? I don’t want to face the world with my tearful face, I just cannot survive with tears every nights, I just feel so reluctant to wake up every morning cause I know I m going to miss him like crazy! This kind of feeling suck! I feel like hell! I messed my mind and my world too!

Fate have brought us together at the beginning of the year and dumped us somewhere else at the end of the year… The moment I know that I might be losing him forever, I just feel so helpless… I know I can’t live happily ever after… my one and only love is leaving!!!It’s breaking my heart… it’s torn me apart! My heart keep bleeding but there is no one know… Lord, now only you can save me. I’m falling so helplessly, it’s true! I had never been falling so much in love before, I never love someone so much before, I never wanted someone so much before… but why this time? Why him? And why me? Is this a joke from the sacred cupid? Howcome a beautiful story that can beat us down into the hell?

Those beautiful and sweet memories that left us painfulness make us feel like hell! We got no more faith in love and now I truly understand love is suck! We need to carry on without each other when our love is still there… what’s the hell is this? Lord, can you please tell me a perfect match from heaven wasn’t a fool from the cupid? Sob… sob… we feel so bad, we feel so sad, we just can’t help ourselves… I rather there’s no such match before! Dear Cupid, please look at us now! What have you done on us? Is this the result you wanna see? Is this the way you wanna us to be?

My dear lord, I just don’t want to live like this anymore, it’s very suffering and torturing! Can you please do me a favor? Take my pains away and give me back my life… what bad things had I done until I need to suffer like this? Dear lord, please forgive me and take away my sins. Dear lord, please bless him too, please help me to heal his broken heart and give him back his life… I want him to be happy! Please bring him back his smile on his face like the 1st day I met him, he deserve to live a better life and his smile can cheer the world, its true =)

Lord, please hear us and answer us… I prayed in the name of Jesus, amen.

Un-break My Heart

Dont leave me in all this pain
Dont leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now

The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heartSay youll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights

Un-break my heartMy heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Dont leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I cant forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Un-break my heartSay youll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tearsI cried so many nights

Un-break my heartMy heart
Dont leave me in all this pain
Dont leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heartSay youll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tearsI cried so many, many nights
Un-break myheart

Un-break my heart
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heartSweet darlin
Without you I just cant go on
Cant go on

被遗弃的心去了哪里？

上帝，我是真的累了。。一个人活着，怎么可以没有了 ‘心’？

很爱一个人，为什么告诉他之后会为他造成困扰？
从前都很单纯的认为，只要互相爱，就不会分离。。
但如今才体会。。 ‘爱’ 并不简单！
如果说我爱他， 会为他带来辛苦而不是幸福的话。。我是不是应该保持沉默？
相爱，却害怕被伤害的感觉好矛盾。。好折磨。。好遗憾！

其实当我们很爱很爱一个人的时候，就不会去在乎会不会受到任何的伤害。。听说过吗 ‘爱情是盲目’ 的。。 能够很理智的就不是爱情；但感性的爱情往往却让人冲昏了头都无法自拔！
我好心疼看着自己心爱的人离我而去。。都怪自己当初爱得不够明显。。
说真的，我一直以来都这么爱着他。。没有一秒是不爱他的。。我是真的真的好爱他！
如果不是的话，我就不会那么执著。。也不会那么辛苦！

我相信在这个世界上再也没有人可以让我爱得那么深。。失去他会是我人生最大的遗憾！而人生最害怕的是有遗憾！要是不是他，我谁都不爱！就算爱，也没有任何义意了。。不想再伤害其它的人，也不想再被伤害！

当我们很爱很爱一个人的时候，就得付出很大的代价！就算是伤痕累累，我都要一次爱个够！只要可以跟最爱的人在一起，一却的牺牲都是值得的！
我真的不会去在乎别人会怎么看待我。。但最重要的是我知道我那一颗真诚的心要的是什么！我要的幸福，就只有我自己可以去保管。。谁也阻止不了！包括我自己在内。。我阻止不了住在我身体里面的那一颗心不去不爱他！

好想好好爱他。。但如今已经不可再紧紧的抱着他。。告诉他，我是真的真的好爱他！因为不想再给他任何的负担。。不想再看到他心疼的模样。。不想再为难他。。如果他也很爱我，我相信他是会感觉得到我对他的那一份永恒不朽的爱！

上帝，但愿您保佑我们！相爱的人原本就应该在一起不是吗？

* The Tide is High *

The tide is high
But I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one
I'm not the kinda girl Who gives up just like that (Oh no)

It's not the things you do
That tease and hurt me bad
But it's the way you do the things
You do to me
I'm not the kinda girl Who gives up just like that *Oh no*

The tide is high
But I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one
The tide is high
But I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

number one
number one

Every girl wants You to be her man
But I'll wait my dear 'Til it's my turn
I'm not the kinda girl Who gives up just like that Oh no
The tide is high
But I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

The tide is high
But I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

number one
number one

Every time that I get the feeling
You give me something to believe in
Every time that I got you near me
I don't believe that I want it to be
But you know that I'm gonna take my chance now
I'm gonna make it happen somehow
And you know I can take the pressure
A moment's pain for a lifetime pleasure

Every girl wants you to be her man
But I'll wait right here
'Til it's my turn
I'm not the kinda girl Who gives up just like that Oh no

The tide is high
But I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

The tide is high
But I'm holding on
I'm gonna be your number one

Every time that I get the feeling
You give me something to believe in
Every time that I got you near me
I don't believe that I want it to be
But you know that I'm gonna take my chance now
I'm gonna make it happen somehow
And you know I can take the pressure
A moment's pain for a lifetime pleasure