It’s coming to an end of the year… still left one more day to the coming year of 2008! Should I be excited though? No! I love year 2007! Seriously I feel so reluctant that year 2007 is coming to an end! My beautiful love story begun here at the beginning of the year of 2007, beside I got my good result at the beginning of the year as well, in addition, that’s my new life here in KL for the year! Sadly to say that I've left my family and came here all alone to further my studies (i miss home all the time - home sick) but god is so good, blessed me with another happy family here… I feel like home at that time!
Everything seems quite well managed, settled for the beginning of the year. Everything looks so peacefully and joyfully. Sincerely, I m very happy with my new life and new beginning here, I thought I was so blessed! What I thought is just I was so blessed!!! But am I really blessed? Howcome when year end come, everything that I owned come to an end as well? My dear lord, why u need to take all this away when the year is going to an end? Why I left with all these pains after the beautiful things that bless me?
I feel the pain with every heart beats, inside I m dying piece by piece… Dear lord, can you please take away my tears? I need you right now to heal my broken heart. I m dying soon cause my heart is bleeding. It’s so hurtful to get breath… every second I breath, I hurt the wound of my broken heart. God, please tell me how long could I still holding on like this? I don’t want to face the world with my tearful face, I just cannot survive with tears every nights, I just feel so reluctant to wake up every morning cause I know I m going to miss him like crazy! This kind of feeling suck! I feel like hell! I messed my mind and my world too!
Fate have brought us together at the beginning of the year and dumped us somewhere else at the end of the year… The moment I know that I might be losing him forever, I just feel so helpless… I know I can’t live happily ever after… my one and only love is leaving!!!It’s breaking my heart… it’s torn me apart! My heart keep bleeding but there is no one know… Lord, now only you can save me. I’m falling so helplessly, it’s true! I had never been falling so much in love before, I never love someone so much before, I never wanted someone so much before… but why this time? Why him? And why me? Is this a joke from the sacred cupid? Howcome a beautiful story that can beat us down into the hell?
Those beautiful and sweet memories that left us painfulness make us feel like hell! We got no more faith in love and now I truly understand love is suck! We need to carry on without each other when our love is still there… what’s the hell is this? Lord, can you please tell me a perfect match from heaven wasn’t a fool from the cupid? Sob… sob… we feel so bad, we feel so sad, we just can’t help ourselves… I rather there’s no such match before! Dear Cupid, please look at us now! What have you done on us? Is this the result you wanna see? Is this the way you wanna us to be?
My dear lord, I just don’t want to live like this anymore, it’s very suffering and torturing! Can you please do me a favor? Take my pains away and give me back my life… what bad things had I done until I need to suffer like this? Dear lord, please forgive me and take away my sins. Dear lord, please bless him too, please help me to heal his broken heart and give him back his life… I want him to be happy! Please bring him back his smile on his face like the 1st day I met him, he deserve to live a better life and his smile can cheer the world, its true =)
Lord, please hear us and answer us… I prayed in the name of Jesus, amen.
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