什么是未来？未来真的是个未知数吗？
未来是用双手打拼出来的，
若果一失足，未来就会变了样！
如果有 “short cut”， 我相信没有人愿意走更长远的路。。
如果有双眼睛能够让我们看到很明确的未来，
或许，就算再长的路，都不算长，也不会走到更多的冤妄路。。
没有十全十美的人；
只有完美的思想！
当你可以做到99分的时候，
别人依然会怪你，怎么只有那么的1分，你就是做不到？
他人会怪你没做到100分，却从不去理会，你已经尽力了！
有时候做人真的很累。。
你真的不可能只为了自己而活！
那一颗坚持的心，真的会被那些冷言冷语伤得很。。
旦愿我会是个超人，
永远不会累，
做事做到最完美无缺！
如果，你没有看到我的努力，
请你不要否认我真的是有努力过。。
我，还持着那一股勇往直前的勇气！
请留下空间让我自己走，
也留下我该拥有的尊严！
I used to think that the one who stay must be suffering more than the one who are leaving;
And now I started to hate myself for flying off and leaving my love ones behind..
It never feels good!
I’m so sorry if I ever blame you for leaving..
Now, I’ve finally realized that we will never understand others situation until we have put ourselves into their shoes.
Nowadays, my parents used to be the ones to send me off at the airport or at the bus station, And whenever I saw them waving hand on me and saying goodbye and my heart started crying in silence! I waved at them with full strength but inside me was attached with a weak soul to carry out the strength to wave! It’s sad, very sad to leave them both behind. I believe that they are sad too! :'( Even worse, I got so many people there in the island to be missed about, how can I do this all alone here at the different land and under the different sky?
Although the distance is so near but yet it seems so far. However, it’s too costly to travel back that often! How not to be sad and what so to be excited about while the frequency to see them become less?
I’ve always asked for the freedom I wanted and now they have given me and it seems too much for me right now. Yes, I’m a soul that haunt for lots and lots of freedom and I’ve got my own choice of pick as always but then I never wanted to be alone! That’s so scary! I thank my parents for being so understanding and letting me to pursue my dream out there. I appreciate their care and thought and scarification very much yet I feel so reluctantly to leave. But I am always strong in front of them, and I never ever really tell them, yes I’ve always missed them, missed home, and missed the island! I’ve to be so independent in front of them to minimize their worries toward me. It’s kind of a tough task to me as I can never be so independent yet I’ve survived all these years. I believe that is god’s strength that keeping me up! Once again, my parents have hand me the decision key but I never good at making decision, to be exact, I never really have the courage to go for what I've always wanted without thinking of my love ones..
The island is so lovely is because of all of you people there, staying! I miss you guys real much! Once I’ve reach the other land and tears are so uncontrollably rolling off.. God, what is this suffering to do with me on my future? Why are you putting me in a situation such as this? I prayed in silence and I hope YOU can grant me wisdom to handle the thing that is out of my ability.
I miss the people on the island, dearly!! Especially you!
p.s. Don’t keep me guessing, if you love me, tell me..
It’s never easy..
To overcome a night like this is never easy!
When things happened as of the previous way, it feels like living under the past shadow, once again.
There is a saying that we should learn from our past but it never taught us how to leave our past behind?
The unease heart speaks louder than the brain that calms heart.
I’m in serious pain!
It’s the commitment and promises that make the heart bleeds even more.
It’s the faith that makes it become so real yet it’s not true.
It’s the innocent soul that believes it could be better this time.
Yet it’s the mindset that cheating over and over again that everything is just right into place.
It’s the pure heart that still hoping for the fairytales story to happen in real life.
It’s the stupidity that makes the heart hurts once more.
After all, it’s the faithful belief that causes the tears rolling off from the eyes that don’t really SEE!
p.s. May god heal the rotten wound and the sin be washed away by your sacred hand.
May the eyes stop crying and may the heart & soul rest in peace, today onwards!
How can U say yes to someone who is not your boyfriend but someone who loves you tender?
Ehem, this sound like a proposal!
Yes, but no, it isn’t a very proper one, so it is not.
Worse part, it doesn’t come from the one who supposed to do it but from some unexpected ones. Yes, this is the second informal “proposal” of the year and from different person and I’m shocked!? *W.o.W* Is it because of our age concern that causes people instead of asked you to be their gf but they were asking to be their wife? *scratch head* How serious do these people treating L.O.V.E as?
Deep down inside, neither us are serious about the "joke" of the day but then I m clearly awaken with my current status, this just could not be so right! I’m no longer a teenager and why wouldn’t it happens 10 years ago while I’m still very naïve on love? Too bad, timing not right!
Sometimes, we met the right person at the very wrong timing; while some met at the right time but to a wrong person. How pathetic? It felt a bit hurt the last time but then it never kills! Perhaps I’m of a better someone now and learnt from my past. It hurts no more.
But hey thanks for the truly sweet words that raise me to cloud9 and it helps to move forward life! Life never goes backward. The only thing we can do is to build for a better tomorrow!
p.s. sweet words are like desserts, they melt heart & soul but you just couldn’t taste it that often for god sake you will get diabetic!
