im-balance SELF!

Thinking too much and it felts so helpless at times;

While making too much of comparison, and it will bri

ng you no ends!

So, not to make comparison else it would never reach a balance end!

There are a lot of things on earth that are not as if 1 + 1 equal to two! That's why difficult! Moreoever i'm poor in math that I don't know the calculation to make me a balance self! ><

How to be happy? How to smile when life makes it so difficult for you? Looking at those pictures, I was indeed a cheer nut the last time! Where am I nowadays? By looking back on my blog posts, most of them seemed to be of "grey" sense of craps.......................... After all, I'm only human and I have feeling too................. I'm tired of hell and I need a shoulder to lean on s0 s0 much!

='( I'm gonna SMILE real hard tonight (I'M GONNA LEARN TO SMILE ALL OVER AGAIN), my heart got bitten up by a FROG! kns*

Hardcore feeling @.@"

There are a lot of things that couldn’t be expressed by word alone. Although it says that words are used to described on how we felt. Somehow, sometimes, the unspoken words are those words that fit exactly into the “gap”.

I used to not to tell; I used to not to express so well;

I used to not let out and even if I do, I do it indirectly!

Sometimes, is the thinking that stops you from expressing. It’s hard though but I’m lack of words to express the real me into the real world!

It’s the hardcore feeling that hidden inside out,

It’s the insufficient courage that pulls me backward; and

It’s the blur sight of future that keep me pause for a moment!

Dear lord, I knew that we are all been granted the wisdom on head and sweet words on mouth, but when it comes to the time to express/confess and it seemed to be of thousand harder and w.h.y?

p.s. how much I wish that my “heart” could turn out to be visible to the one that I wanted to express so much yet without word.

T.G.I.F

YaY! Thank God is Friday! I used to “woohoo” for Friday, especially Friday night! But recently, I’ve gone through for so many lonely Friday nights until I felt it’s no longer fun on Friday itself anymore!

What the…

Ladies got to get used of this kind of pain called “menstrual pain” once in every month. So do I? I pray hard next time, really, I don’t wanna be a girl, NO more! It’s more best if I could stay in heaven forever after life.. NO, NO and NO for a human being! ( I love my life though but ONCE is more than enough!) *grins*

What to do on a randomly boring Friday night? Look at my skin, awwwww… I’m growing OLD! (not the figure though) but my skins are all in an urgent state to ask for SOS! They are lack of moisture and worse part, my face! Why la, I’m such a lady who possess a “quarter” age of my life and hormone started to get some changes?! FCK! It’s been few more months ago that I’m facing the world with this kind of skin on face, when is all these gonna stop at time? I’m truly sick of those pigmentations spot, scar, dark circles and pimples and T-zone! Howcome the newly recommended brand of product never cure my little lovely face? =(

Stress? No more after exam! Don’t tell me loneliness cause the ugly skin? Sigh… hence I’ve putted on a whitening face mask that could chilled on my face for about 10 – 20 mins! But then, result after used, I m feeling the same old me, nothing much has change! This mask doesn’t work on me, I’m ugly now @.@’

Other than mask, moisture lotions range, green tea and plain waters, tomatoes are nowadays my big fan! I m eating them almost everyday in a quantity of 12 plus! I guess, I should give time, times. Let’s pray hard for another few more months to get a new “face”! (I’m urgently need a beautiful face in the end of the year, though it’s not my wedding =P but I’m kinda VIP on my best friend’s wedding) This time, I do really need to cross my fingers tight and pray really hard, dear Lord, please heal my “broken” but cheecky face! Toiiiiiiiiiiiiii…………..

GOODNIGHT bloggie, time to SLEEP!! (to have a beautiful skin is to sacrifice the young and beautiful night!)

p.s. The night still young but my skin no longer young! *SIGH*

丘比特的爱

是这样的吗？

如果是注定了要在一起，

为何，还会有距离的两个人？

唉。。

每当经过那里，都会想起当初的我们！

想起当初，

我的脆弱；

你的坚持。

每每看到那一男一女的坐在那凳椅上，

就看到了我们的影子，

唤起了那一段很凄美的回忆！

还记得当初的我，是个很痴情的爱哭鬼；

然而那时候的你是曾经的那么伟大，

耐心的陪着我度过那一段最孤寂的长夜！

我，是心疼了，

但也被感动了。。

对不起，

我让你收拾了一颗破烂的心。。

可也因此，我看到了那伟大的爱！

然而那一年的圣诞，我没有许愿，

因为，你， 所以已经实现了。。

＝〕

如果是决定了的事，

我都会很认真！

如果已经许下了诺言，

我会很单纯的受候着！

只是思念是痛苦的，

偶而眼泪会失控。。

但愿我把所有的思念都变成最贴切的文字，

然后，

通过宇宙，

传到你那儿！

丘比特，

可不可以拿走思念的苦？

可不可以让爱情再甜一点？

可不可以让恋爱没有距离？

可不可以让分开的时间缩短？

人生短短几十年，

您又那忍心看着相爱的人被距离隔离着？

丘比特，

有时候，很认真的人，会很傻，对吗？