A confession of a poor girl ~

Dear lord,

It’s so painful to handle this. Now I understand how she feels at that time! I’m so sorry.. I’m so so SORRY! Lord, please heal her. It’s extremely hurt when your heart shattered into thousands of pieces! I can’t help myself but to come to Lord with a tearful face! Dear lord, here I come to confess my life to u, please take away my sins and grant me the wisdom to accept the things that I do not seem to be able to accept!

I feel like crying... please let me...

I'm happy don't u see?

Before anything else, I wanted to thank our heavenly father so much for I have been blessed! I’m blessed!! Yeah, I can be proudly say so that everytime u see me smile, u will surely know that I’m happy indeed! I just can’t hide my happiness with the smiling on my little cheeky face.. LoL! Anyway why should I hide my happiness? Hehe.. I’m just being my true self and I appreciate every moment that cheer me!

For what I've learn, don’t blame God for anything bad, instead pray for everything to be fine and thanks God for answering u! Everything happened for reasons! God is wiser and no man shall beat him! If there is something bad that happened on u, don’t blame anyone, never give up, shut up and calm down, and learn your lesson! After a rainy day, there’s always a sunny day! If good things happened, that’s the blessing! Appreciate and enjoy~ and not forgotten to thank HIM for all that HE have gave!

There’s a silly girl sitting at the corner of her room with the silly smile freezing on her face, thinking that God might be so good to inject such a sweet joy to her life! I am feeling pampered! I am happy, and I can’t say a word right now but I do appreciate every single moment that make me cheer! I swear! There’s an unreveal secret hidden deep down inside my heart, it’s like a lock, if someday, somehow u hold the only special key, u will come to unlock and reveal the secret! And now, I shall leave it as a mystery for tomorrow.. ;)

*hugs* hold me tight (that’s the best comfort ever!) and whispering on my ear that everything is alright and I’ll feel like I’m flying without wings!

Speed Test

hey dear all, here da space for u guys to test how fast can u guys 10 fingers type out in a minute time! hurry up catch da deal!

below was my poor result, that's da maximum i can go.. cheer cheer~

500 words

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Deep thoughts ~

‘Tomorrow u will be older a day, may be u will become wiser’ ha! I read this phrase in a small hand book in mph book store but I can’t remember what’s the book is. Anyway, that doesn’t matter, as long as I remember this and keep it in my mind. It’s true that it says so. I realize for every tomorrow, we grow up and we grow older (not in the sense of looking old but then in the sense of being more mature!) and thus we act wisely.

It’s a coincidence thing that I read that phrase the day before my birthday so it’s really means a lot to me! I guess yeah I will grow older a year after my birthday but I don’t grow mature over night! The things to be happy about is when peoples around me pointed out my maturity level been upgraded! That’s mean I really grew maturely day after day.. my thinking, my decisions, my behaviors proved the changes! I’m glad to have such a positive changes in my life, a very worthwhile thing to be reach for during the process of growing up! *best rewarded*

However, I’ve been paying a big price for this life lesson – a regrets to carry along the life times! ‘No pain, no gain’ is that what it means? I guess the true meaning is that we need to work hard to get what we want. Nothing comes for free in this world. But if thing does not go as in your way, don’t give up, keep your hard work and be patient to be rewarded one day in the future! I always love this quote “For God has great things in store, for those who patiently wait!”

Since there is nobody’s perfect, who don’t create mistakes? Who never regret? Who never feel disappointed? Who never fell? Who never lose? Who never get down of their knees to beg for something they wanted so much? You are not a failure if u were in these positions before. Nobody can be a forever failure as long as there’s a sincere HEART to change your current position! Realize your mistakes and change! If you fall down, try to get up yourself! The 1st ever thing to do after falling is to get up and then you wait for your chances to go further! Get up and inform the world about your existence; change and make yourself an improved person to be; if peoples see your changes, see you’re in good, your opportunity come along the way! Those who are willing to sacrifice, peoples will give chance! =) So don’t stop, never give up!

The ever big enemy is deep inside you! Beat your self-enemy and stand up for yourself! Yeah, start from today, you can do it! Even Malaysians have made the changes, so are you?

Hate the KPC !

Just received a pissed off call from somebody which is really irritated me a lot! My mood been spoiled by this so called KPC! I m wondering why sometimes people want to ask but then never want to believe on the answer given! So what’s the point to ask? Why am I bothering to answer at the 1st place? It’s seriously wasting of my time to answer such a stupid fella! Bagger, if you don’t believe or even like to make assumptions yourself, then just go ahead with the question marks on top of your stupid head! Don’t ever come and bother me!

Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ this feeling suck! It’s really pissed me off! :’(

Okie, now I should keep my mouth shut and go STARDI!

别在我旧伤口上撒盐 ！

今晚又睡不着了。。不停的重复听着 ‘彩虹’ － 周杰伦的这首歌。。我的心情顿时的崩溃了。。回往过去，我真的不好过。。心疼得泪流满面！我不想这样，我以为我会好起来。。怎么今晚又再老病复发了？主耶稣，想念一个人真的好辛苦！我好怀念过去的一却。。这不是我所要的结局！

请别在我旧伤口上撒盐。。外表坚强的我还是会感到很痛。。很痛。。一种很熟悉的痛！很爱一个人，怎么到最后会是一种伤害？我逼着自己不去想。。不去说。。不去期待！我压郁着自己的感情，不让任何人知道。。唉，好辛苦！

好希望能够眼神交流，他就能收到我的讯息。。好希望不出声，他也了解一切。。好希望他可以住在我心里面，那他就懂得一切。。有可能吗？就算这世上会出现一个很懂我的人，也需要沟通，要不然怎么会到对方的世界？

唉。。我总是很怀念。。总是活在过去。。好想念他。。我是真的好想念他。。我想,他不会知道吧？

What I need is a shoulder to lean on but not to pour salt on my wound!