~ w0nDeRinG ~

Why things just happened in such an unexpected way?

I m still wondering why?!

Why we can miss each other so much in the morning and then come to an end for our love in the evening?

Why things just can change so fast without notifying me?
Am I the only silly here who keep waiting, who can’t let go? Who got no guts to face the fact?
How could I let go the one that I love so much?

Why love brings us so much of hurt?
Why need to be so tough to be with someone that we love?
Why a loving couple could just change overnight and become stranger the next day?

Why am I missing him so much?
He’s the best of all!
And
I m losing my treasure right now!
I m losing someone that I wanted so much!
I m losing.. I m losing..

He’s my everything..
I miss him..
I miss him a lot!

Does he know about this?
Does he do the same too?
I’ m wondering!

It's breaking apart !

Today is 15! Both of us know what’s a day is this! But none of us will expect something bad might happen on this day ,this month! I feel so heart breaken at that moment I knew the“cruel truth” from u and it was so clear and obvious!i’m sorry that I couldn’t hold my tears and that’s annoyed u!i’m so sorry that I m such an useless crying babe..i hate myself!

I seriously hurt to the ultimate but still I love u so! my love to u will never change just because of the cruelest truth! I’m sick man! It’s fucking hurt to hear those! But why am i still can’t die heart? Izzit my love for u can forgive and cover on everything bad that u said n did to me? I guess so! Orelse I won’t be still loving u like hell!

Yes, I rather be the stupid one to love u forever!yes, I admit I m just a stupid fool in ur eyes but I just don’t care whether I m such a silly girl for u or not.. I just don’t care!i just don’t give a damn shit on this! I’m very determined because I really know who I love the most and u happened to be the one! Please don’t blame me on this.. I just can’t control my feeling!u know that I really love u and I just can’t let go someone that I love so much all this whilst! It’s the hardest thing to let go the one that u really love.. please don’t ask me to go.. :’(

No matter what, I’ll still be right here waiting! Until the day u want me back, u’r most welcome! There’s no1 else but it’s ONLY you that I want so much.. it’s only you that I want to be with forever! My dear, I really love u very much! My commitment never change since the day I gave out! I truly mean it! I truly do..

小时候的自己，长大后还会是同一个人吗？

小时候很开心的自己去了哪？长大后怎么就开心不起来了呢？
是什么时候又老病复发了？怎么又再笑不起来了？怎么内心又再闷闷不乐了呢？
脑常对心说：“你不寂寞，你应该开心才对啊！”
心在想怎么也说服得了自己开心起来。。对开心这个字突然好陌生。。开心这回事有应该不应该的吗？ 或是对不对的吗？我想开心是很自然的感觉吧！开心就开心，不开心又何必自欺欺人呢？

还记得小时候无忧无绿的童年吗？嘻！当然记得啦！那时候的我们都好开心！爸爸常常牵着我的小手，妈妈则牵着弟弟的小手。。这儿走，那儿逛的。。还拍了好多的照片呢！拍照时，爸妈都要我与弟手互放在彼此的肩上，以示互相爱护！有谁的父母不希望见到自己的儿女相亲相爱呢？
虽然童年是开心的，但我们的童年都比别人多了一份忧绿！或许是这样子吧。。我们都在很小很小的时候学会了坚强，也更懂事！感谢上天，我从没后悔过。。或许这样，我们才会变得更完美！嘻。。
说啊说的。。我又再很想念他们了！好像好久没回家了。。我是真的真的很想念他们啊！他们到底知不知道我正在想他们呢？我不会告诉他们我有多想他们，因为这样子，他们会很心疼的。。当你想念却又看不见，摸不着所想念的人时，可说是件很辛苦。。很心疼的感觉！