All To Jesus I Surrender

Funny Birthday Song~

Yes! Happy Birthday to YOU before the 12 o'clock is over =) *enjoy - have a laugh!*

張惠妹 趁早

I believe everything happens for a reason. So, thank God no matter what and I believe HE send the best only! *cheers* I admitted to my fate and I've regret no more! Life move on and the best is yet to come! =)

I wish you all the best too! Please be happy!

What YOU say and what God says ?

Recently, I’ve been attacked by those unwanted “thing” that make my nights so horrible. Still remembered the 1st night when I saw it, I tried to call for my aunty but it doesn’t work. I was so weak until I not even can speak out. I was so annoyed by that thing until I called up the name of Jesus and it flew away!

The second night, it tried to attacked me again. This time I don’t call people up. The same way I do was I prayed in Jesus name and that force just disappeared! Have faith in god and I am protected!

I know it sounds scary but I was kind of annoyed of this kind of unwanted “thing” and I got mad! Deep down inside, I was thinking don’t come and mess with me orelse I would really destroy you first!

That’s just my thinking anyway. When it comes to the time that I need to sleep but I still couldn’t manage to sleep and the fear come again. It is like even if you cannot sleep but still you need to close your eyes to avoid seeing something unwanted!

I prayed and tell god that I am scared!

God says, you poor girl, don’t feel scare of anything, in fact you’re always being protected.

You say: 'I'm too tired' God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: 'Nobody really loves me' God says: I love you (John 3:1 6 & John 3:34 )
You say: 'I can't go on' God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: 'I can't figure things out' God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5- 6)
You say: 'I can't do it' God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: 'I'm not able' God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: 'It's not worth it' God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )
You say: 'I can't forgive myself' God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: 'I can't manage' God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: 'I'm afraid' God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated' God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
You say: 'I'm not smart enough' God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: 'I feel all alone' God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

Father, God, bless all my friends in whatever it is that you know they may need this day! And may their lives be full of your peace, prosperity and power as they seek to have a closer relationship with you. Amen.

Yes, I pray in the name of Jesus and I believe in HIM only.

p.s. very much of shoulder pain now =.=' didn't sleep well though. *but thanks to the prayers*

JJ林俊傑／蔡卓妍 ~ 【小酒窩】

我还在寻找 一个依靠 和一个拥抱
wo hai zai xun zhao yi ge yi kao he yi ge yong bao
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
shui ti wo qi dao ti wo fan nao wei wo sheng qi wei wo nao

*幸福开始有预兆 缘份让我们慢慢紧靠
xing fu kai shi you yu zhao yuan fen rang wo men man man jin kao
然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了

ran hou gu dan bei tun mo le wu liao bian de you hua liao you bian hua le


#小酒窝长睫毛是你最美的记号
xiao jiu wo chang jie mao shi ni zui mei de ji hao
我每天睡不着想念你的微笑
wo mei tian shui bu zhao xiang nian ni de wei xiao
你不知道你对我多么重要
ni bu zhi dao ni dui wo duo me zhong yao
(你不知道 多么重要)
(ni bu zhi dao duo me zhong yao)
有了你生命完整的刚好
you le ni sheng ming wan zheng de gang hao

@小酒窝长睫毛迷人的无可救药
xiao jiu wo chang jie mao mi ren de wu ke jiu yao
我放慢了步调感觉像是喝醉了
wo fang man le bu diao gan jue xiang shi he zui le
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
zhong yu zhao dao xin you ling xi de mei hao
一辈子暖暖的好
yi bei zi nuan nuan de hao
我永远爱你到老
wo yong yuan ai ni dao lao

Happy Valentine's Day ~

Yes, I love surprises!

and

Yes, this is my Valentine's Day surprise! *unpredictable* :D

guess how many stalk of them? *ahem*

The best things come when you least expect them to - this is so true, isn't it?

Truly, I never expect anything.. that is why it's indeed a big surprise for me!

*sweet*

To the sender, I love this and I'm very touched of seeing this bunch of roses!

Thank you very much for your sweet idea! *winks*


p.s. I'm happy! Can't you see?

Everyone has beauty, but not everyone sees it!

Tell me it is not true?

Yes! In fact, not everyone sees us!

… Especially the beauty of us!

So, at the end of the day, we will only be looking for the one who do really sees us and appreciate the beauty of us and to not make our life so miserable.

It’s ok, I’ll be all right.

Because I always believe that God only send the best!

p.s. no pain, no gain.

BUT

Big THANKS to all that who have always see me and cheer me and
if you see me laughing a lot whenever you talk to me then you have definitely done a good job!

At the end of the day is the joke, the fun, the care and the understanding that count!

Yes, I see the beauty of all the nice people around me and I appreciate it a lot! =)

Another blessed day!

Today, a lucky day I considered it to be! But hey why?

Yes, firstly I was very happy with myself at least another day of being a miss independent! I’ve get my things done and I can fly already to anywhere else I want but money is always the matter! Don’t care, work hard and earn as much as I can and I will go enjoy life very soon! *winks* Finally, I feel the satisfaction of standing on my own feet! :p

A little story to share here:
Before I get myself ready, I prayed for a safe journey to there since I've never been there before, I feel a bit uneasy. But god is so good that he has planned for everything that I am going to go thru. The cab was already waiting there when I was at the train station. I knew that my prayer has been answered. Thank god really!

God put extra bonus when I’ve met someone that I am very familiar with inside the building! It makes me feel that this world is small when I’ve met my long lost friend there at the Immigration Office! How could it be? But it just happen la k? He was my A level classmate when we were in Penang and I almost can’t recognize him as he is growing “big”! My goodness, only then I realized I long time didn’t contact with him, at all. I tried hard to find out his number as he didn’t see me. Luckily my damn phone still keeps his number. Then there was him and we met! Lucky! Today, I am damn lucky dude! Especially you know you get to wait for the damn two hours before you can get everything done and here the angel that god had arranged! I got companion for the long hours and I am not alone for my lunch! Both of us felt so blessed and fated! Atleast we don’t need to be the dumb donkeys inside waiting! Cool! We crapped a lot since we’ve been lost for such a long time, definitely there’s a long topic to go on, isn't it?

... and finally the free ride to my office! Thx dude and it’s so nice to be the lady! No? :0

I was really blessed by those kind peoples that god has sent! All my prayers for the day been answered by the lord and this is obviously another lovely day to be thankful of!

=) p.s. I cross fingers and pray hard for the coming… =,=*

Hot chic? or a hot tempered chic?

She is the big fat hen that makes noise in the early morning!

Yes, there is this fat ass at my work place that born to spoil my days whenever she makes noise! *nuisance*

Yes, she can never talk nicely to people other then boss!

Yes, she is so rude that she always want to raises up her tones high!

There is this sweet madam who called in this morning. She was our boss ex-colleague, asking me nicely which day boss is free for her to meet up. She wants to arrange an appointment with my boss. So I asked her to hold on and then I proceed to see boss’s daily schedule and see exactly which day boss is free. Then the hot tempered “hen” started to make noise already, and say: ‘ask that bugger go and call boss herself la!’ Of course, I will totally immune myself from her crazy loud tone and continue check the schedule and went back to the call. But I guess the sweet madam heard the loud tone as well, so she just told me nicely that you just have to inform your boss that I had called and she will definitely calls the boss herself. Thanks god but I felt so ‘malu’ of my colleague! What kind of image she gives to people? I don’t know but she just doesn’t care and she is just a fat ass after all!

If you don’t respect yourself and never wish that I could respect you!

And yes, I’m tired to deal with hot tempered guy. *phobia*

p.s. Some people just cannot talk nicely and a little bit want to get angry. What to do? Their loss!

Happy Chap Goh Meh and the Lunar Birthday ~

Today is the very last day of Chinese New Year and they called it as 'Chap Goh Meh' for this day! So happy chinese new year for the one last time of the year 2009!

Between, I was the baby who came to the world on time on this day so that I manage to get "ang pow" when I was born! Haha.. cool! How lucky I was? But I'm surely mom was the one who suffered a lot on that day! So, I guess the "ang pow" on that year were her reward? LoL.. I was lucky that I didn't born the next day of 'Chap Goh Meh' *evil smile* orelse there would be nothing special for me to remember this lunar birthday already as I don't celebrate the lunar one.

Anyway, if anyone could remember this, and ofcourse I will be very happy! But then, No! Nobody knows it too I supposed? But there is definitely this particular human remember it and never forget! Yes, she's my lovely mom! I've received a sweet call from her just right on time! When she get to know that I was all home alone, and she got worried. Yes, this is the ever first 'Chap Goh Meh' that I were to be celebrated alone. But then I assured mom that I was all alright. Then only she put down the phone. Aww.. this is mom's love and nobody can ever beat her love! She's so sweet.. :'( she makes me feel like going home! Peoples usually gathering with family on this last day of Chinese New Year. I envy those who have their family here with them! Yes, that's the bad thing of leaving your home and to other place that it doesn't belong to you. I feel it the most especially I am "home" alone now! It's sucks! By the way not to forgotten that it is a chinese valentines' day too! (Ouch..add a little salt on my wound!) Luckily I am not so cina, and I never celebrate this day as a Valentines' day, ok?

Anyway, I am just complaining crap here. I'll be fine after that. Luckily ma cousin is over the msn to "gather" with me! Atleast not so bad right? We gathering on msn lo since both of us were out of our home sweet home, what to do right? God is fair to everyone, now u see right? :D

Between, I enjoying home alone without my aunty around! Although I so fcking hate to be alone but then it would be so much better without her there! My ears can rest atleast and I am free to do anything I want without her nagging! Thank god thank god! Hehehe.. I am so evil!

Happy Chap Goh Meh, Happy Valentines' day to those "cina-man" couples and Happy Lunar Birthday to the "evil" and well, nothing but times to go back to the damn book! *grins*

p.s. my cousin greets me this "su ling pirenthenal vaalthugal" LoL.. I guess he's gonna be an indian boy soon? Please don't whack me when you see me cause I am an evil! :P But teach me more!

是你決定我的傷心 - you decide my sadness

歌手：张玉华/李圣杰

女:我曾经以为那是一次潇洒的邂逅
所以我一直相信能够轻易说hello
抱著游戏的心情
考验自己没有防备的感情
不在乎自己有没有这种能力

男:我必须承认不敢释放我的真情
所以我相信也会是你的问题
太多太多的激情闯进尘封已久的禁地
让我们失去选择的余地

男:是你决定我的伤心
女:是你决定我的伤心
合:如果我们还会重新相遇我会用感觉拥有所有的你

男:是你决定我的伤心
女:是你决定我的伤心
合:如果我们还会重新相遇我不会让你决定我的伤心

thankyouverymuch ^.<

Appreciate every single moment that you have,

and;

When God has sent you nice people,

Smile and be thankful!



p.s. nEvEr ever tAkE aNyOne 4 gRanTed!

Love is hurt!

:'(

Feeling very hurt!

Howcome it is so difficult to have love someone?

Howcome it will hurt so much when you are really in love with that someone?

Howcome things just don't work out in that perfect way?

Howcome the two peoples that truly love each other can find it so difficult to be together?

I am very suffering now as I'm afraid to have lose the ever one in my life!

I'm sick! Yes, yes, I am definitely SICK~ In fact, I don't even own anyone right now!

Heavy RAIN on yesterday!

I was kind of shocked when I heard about it. Honestly, I feel very sorry for your lost as she is such a beautiful baby that I love her as you do too! I understand the pain without you telling me anything but that is enough for me to feel it there.

I wish so much that I could be there to give you a big hug and comfort you everything gonna be all right and you, she will be fine soon. It’s still all right that you all are safe there. I thank god for that, at least nothing really bad that happen on you guys. Sadly, I couldn’t be physically there for you and so ..

Oh yes, I’ve started to become an half vegetarian few weeks ago. What do I mean by ‘half’? Yes, me consider as half vegetarian cause I eat vege food only for my dinner. Mom was worried that I would lose my weight since then but I always believe no such thing as eating vege would get me skinny. As this might not be a very prosperous year for ox peoples, I do hope that my act of goodness could help up the peoples around me. I wish that they could be safe and are all well including myself. Between I had bought myself a green phantom bracelet to make my life easy for the year. Yes, I do really believe in the power of crystal and I love crystal too!

Between I pretend as if I don’t know anything about ‘the day’ but in fact it is coming nearer and I keep on counting for this day on my head! WTF* I’m sick.. I’m so so sick! >.<”

Welcome back to the reality!

After a long break for cny, here I am again and thanks for all the “pm” from my loyal readers and I am alive still. Thanks for concern really. I am not busy but I was just away to an island called ‘home sweet home’.

Yea, in just a blink of eyes, cny was all over. A friend who droves me home yesterday, asked me how do I felt when we were almost reaching KL and I dare not to tell him I miss home already. I just don’t want to make my friend feel bad of that and I do really appreciate the ride that offered all the way from KL to my hometown and hometown to KL. The lame jokes and sharing kept us awake throughout the raining journey. And finally thank god for our safe arriving and those who had prayed for us.

I miss home, oh yes I do! As things are different now, I am working and no longer have the holidays to go back to the island so often as I used to be. Come to think of it, I feel sad to be away from home. luckily, both my parents are understanding enought for not asking when will I be back again. Dare not to think how long more to go home as I never leave home for so long, but I guess at end of the year only I manage to go back, how sad?!

I will miss you mom and dad and I will surely miss the beach and the sea wind from the sweet island! I know it would be a very tough year for me but we will learn through our tough experiences, at the end of the day, we need to be independent and through the different role that I am posing now, I would be definitely more responsible. *yeah*

I will keep all my precious peoples and moments deep inside. Work hard for now as there is no more excuse to slave around and I’m sure that god treat everyone of us fair enough =)

For the dear all in the island, I will see you when I see you! So, happy working everyone! At the end of the day, it’s the success that counts! It’s the time to boost up your energy and move your heavy butt!

* All The Best *