On the midnight of 9th of February 2015,
I've received a call from my mom who has inform me about the sudden
news of grandma has passed away! Grandma was at her age of 88, this
year. She was so ill but yet she tried to give as much responses to us
when we were calling her during our visit to the hospital.
The
period of her stays in hospital was short, she admitted on the
Wednesday and passed away there on the Sunday, midnight. Of course, all
of us who loves her dearly were so sad to get to know this and it was
just two weeks before CNY when everyone else pray for her to come home
soon just right before CNY, Jesus has decided to ends her suffering and
brought her home to be with the Lord above.
I'm
still sad while posting this because we are only human with emotional
tense. We missed our grandma and we are truly sad on the demised of our
grandma at this period. Although, we understand that she has gone home
with the Lord for a better eternity life, but yes, we take time to
lessen our pain of missing her, dearly. I trust in the Lord that HE will
comfort each of us and give us strength to carry on!
For
myself, I have exams, graduation and wedding to go through this year
and it's gonna be tough. I'm exceptionally down when I see for every of
my plans, I included ah por into the picture. I know Lord's decision is
almighty and higher than us, but I prayed to have lesser pain each day
to be able to carry on in life and to know the reason behind the
decision of our Lord, why this year? I'm still seeking for an answer.
Lord, you surely understand on my feeling now, and I'm eagerly praying
for an answer for this as you're our mercy Lord, why this year? Grandma
was happy to hear on the graduation and wanted to wait for the wedding.
I'm all heart broken but grandma is in a better place now rest assured
me!
Looking
on my guest attendance list, I miss grandma. Looking at the CNY hamper
that yet to give her, I miss grandma. For my graduation pic, there will
be no more ah por. Dear Lord, this year is a year of restoration as for
your promise. I'm still holding on my faith, I prayed that you can open
upp my eyes, my heart and my mind to accept the almighty arrangement of
yours. Lord, please grant me wisdom to carry on. Dear Lord, please
granted one of my aunty who was very close to grandma more courage and
strength to carry on as well as she loves you very much too, Lord.
Looking
at all the relevant stuff that related to grandma, we know we have
missed her dearly! May our ah por Rest in Peace in the arms of Jesus,
and may she reunion with our dearest ah gong who has gone home with the
Lord for over the 20years, Amen! To be honest, this year CNY is a bit
tough for us but we have to understand that we are all god's children
and HE loves all of us! We will find peace.
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| A blessing that I couldn't be able to send out on time, but God has blessed her with something more grateful! |
