Before I start off this, don’t say me a very pious person but indeed I felt god and I see his plan has come into place slowly and by patience, I feel the strength and the faith keep me believing on what I am doing now is actually flowed from his very unique plan!
There’s are tons of things on my head spinning around, interrupting the peace of my mind yet we are all human so no complain. We do have a lot of shits to face and things to be resolved! The most significant one – the result as usual! The world looks at your “cert”, don’t you think so? The most struggling period is when you knew you just can’t do anything but to wait there patiently for the outcome! Other than waiting patiently, the worriness came along! Are they both best friend or enemy? *patience vs worriness* But this is human instinct to worry about shit! NO?
In short I just hate being in uncertainty! No matter in what aspect of life, I need to be secured! That’s the reason why we are struggling hard to work things out, and sometimes failed and then success!
Today, HE, the lord showed me the way not to worry about thing when I almost lose faith again! Remembered few days ago there was this big rainy day, the super big rain drops and strong wind, I slipped off under the rain and yes, I hurt my toes and nails and cause my leg sore! So sore that I didn’t cry but I was angry with myself! It upsets me with the heavy rain yet I were to be carelessly slipped off? Wth?! I went mad and frustrated yet I managed to run home and showered myself with warm water and cool off! I still remembered I screwed the dinner and went on to bed at 730pm! I don’t feel like facing the world and sleeping is the only way for me to temporarily get rid of the frustrated life!
Honestly, my wound is not serious, I m not lame! I never worried that I cannot walk as I face the worse before and I’m alive still. Say what u want to say, yes I’m stubborn and tough! I can be very independent if I wanted to, so don’t judge me from the first appearance. You’ll never know what I’ll be doing next! Hehe.. sound horrible me! But then, lord loves us enough to not see us suffering so much. HE knews that I can walk but still HE is sending some guardian angels around to give protections. I’ve been offered a free ride home by Mr. Tan who is my boss’ buddy, also my respectable LA!
Yes, I’m being blessed all this while and I m absolutely being thankful and appreciate all the nice people around me that showered me with cares and loves! Lesson learned, not to worry so much as HE always has plans for us.
Above all, I thank HIM for giving me such a great guy that makes me so in peace in love with. A matured thinking minded him, don’t need me to worry much and he understands things well without too much of expressions! I’m glad and I don’t need to be a love slave! Cool huh? Lol.. Yea, aww.. I miss him already! >.<”
p/s: After all God has his own plan for us, why worry?
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