Grandma is finally gone back to the island

I was down, yes, I’m down still..

Suddenly the house becomes so empty and quiet and I’m feeling extremely lonely and thus I’m sad to the nowhere I could describe but truly heart breaks!

I miss grandma, I miss them! It is so shitty to have live alone. I don’t like to be alone! No matter how much I hate the situation, I need to be in. That is life. I can only blame nuts!

Straight after sending them off, I 1^st sms to someone special but he was not free for me. Hence I’ve call to my close friend and started all my pains and tears. Once I expressed with words, the tears dropped. I felt so much bitter to have stayed alone. Missing someone is killing me. I feel so much reluctance to let them go. I wish I could have more options to be chosen from.

I called my mom, I called my very best friend, I talked to some of the friends yet I’m still very empty inside. I’m living in a body without soul. I feel like dying..

I need to study, I need to study real quick but my heart is not ready for them! I am truly depressed at the moment. Where is my baby? When I was crying like a baby, where are you? I need you urgently.. to comfort my unstable heart beats! :’(

Thanks sis for all the Christianity songs, by listening to them, though dropping tears yet it helps to feel relieve a bit.

p.s. I love you, I do really love you all!! >.<"